How are you all coping with the Covid pandemic?

It's back and forth for us tbh.

Most of the time it's actually a huge relief. I'm not having to work right now, which is extremely stressful for most of our system. Being free of working is helping us relax a little bit. We like our solitude for the most part. It's going to get even better as I'm getting my own place where I am going to be living alone.

Part of the roadblock to me accepting whether I have DID or not is that a lot of the alters are worried about my parents finding out about it. It's going to be a relief know alters can come out freely without fear of being caught. We are going to have privacy and such. Friends are something we've not really had a lot of anyway. I'm pretty introverted. Talking to people on the internet is as close to be social as I usually get. Even my therapist is over the phone and not in person.

On the downside for the last month and a half and for two more weeks, I am in a house with someone with a severe anxiety order and very, very, very controlling parents. This person triggers me.

Ashe42 wrote:It's back and forth for us tbh.

Most of the time it's actually a huge relief. I'm not having to work right now, which is extremely stressful for most of our system. Being free of working is helping us relax a little bit. We like our solitude for the most part. It's going to get even better as I'm getting my own place where I am going to be living alone.

Part of the roadblock to me accepting whether I have DID or not is that a lot of the alters are worried about my parents finding out about it. It's going to be a relief know alters can come out freely without fear of being caught. We are going to have privacy and such. Friends are something we've not really had a lot of anyway. I'm pretty introverted. Talking to people on the internet is as close to be social as I usually get. Even my therapist is over the phone and not in person.

On the downside for the last month and a half and for two more weeks, I am in a house with someone with a severe anxiety order and very, very, very controlling parents. This person triggers me.

I hope you can get out of there soon then. I'm very used to my own company and independence. My own mum died when we were younger. Had to help take over the running off the house and looking after of siblings. Always had our own room at home, away at college and uni(though did have to share a flat there. My young more sociable front was up at that time anyway who was glad of the acceptance of others after spending years through secondary school being bullied.

As an older adult we were alone and isolated when we finally reached an understanding of DID and have kept a solitary life so others alters are free to emerge as they wish. The one's that spent years hidden when we had a more social life now have their chance to live outside in the world daily. The social front's only come out when we have appointments we have to attend.

Covid 19 is a great excuse for me to not have to see people socially who I don't want to by leading them to believe I'm in the 'shielded group'. Only go out to walk the dog really early when there's no-one else about, no pressure, no expectations we are thriving other than the fact we will miss meeting up with sibling for our birthdays. They have been to cut the grass in garden though but other than delivery people who leave the parcel/food/prescriptions then wait further up the drive to see someone has taken it in we haven't seen anyone to really have a conversation with or spend any amount of time with since xmas day.

Yah. I'm hoping it will help. I'm actually really excited and stressed. the move date moved up. I don't even have any boxes but I'm going to do what I can to pack early.

so far so good!
I have the house to myself and that helps me to keep confusion away.
NOw all we needed is some non-judgie friends in the real world. this time would be used to a new group of people in our life!

we feel and are looking forward to build relationships that are good for us body and mind.

We are mostly home-bodies anyway... but it is still a tad stressful at times.

Some of us are very against the heavy-handed lockdown mentality imposed on the world... some of us agree with it strongly- so partly it depends on who is out, or how "close" they are - especially when faced with the reality of BEING out in public or needing to be.

I think more than anything, it's just added a constant subtle stress that alone would be nothing most of the time, but with all the other stuff going on in our lives... it's just another source of irritation and sometimes adding to the already isolating pain and struggles... just a few more drops of water in an already heavy and hard to carry bucket, basically.

Zor wrote:We are mostly home-bodies anyway... but it is still a tad stressful at times.

Some of us are very against the heavy-handed lockdown mentality imposed on the world... some of us agree with it strongly- so partly it depends on who is out, or how "close" they are - especially when faced with the reality of BEING out in public or needing to be.

I think more than anything, it's just added a constant subtle stress that alone would be nothing most of the time, but with all the other stuff going on in our lives... it's just another source of irritation and sometimes adding to the already isolating pain and struggles... just a few more drops of water in an already heavy and hard to carry bucket, basically.

This thing about being able to socialise in a small bubble of close family from 1or 2 households looks promising anyway. Hoping to at least be able to go to families house for a small BBQ in the summer for a joint birthday meal as our birthdays will have been in lockdown and we've all been alone.

Don't think pubs will be open by then but wouldn't feel safe in a place with so many people so soon anyway so happier in large back garden with plenty of space between everyone! Even if we don't do physical contact it will be nice to sit in the same garden and chat for a few hours over a few chicken drumsticks and a drink!

KitMcDaydream wrote:

Zor wrote:We are mostly home-bodies anyway... but it is still a tad stressful at times.

Some of us are very against the heavy-handed lockdown mentality imposed on the world... some of us agree with it strongly- so partly it depends on who is out, or how "close" they are - especially when faced with the reality of BEING out in public or needing to be.

I think more than anything, it's just added a constant subtle stress that alone would be nothing most of the time, but with all the other stuff going on in our lives... it's just another source of irritation and sometimes adding to the already isolating pain and struggles... just a few more drops of water in an already heavy and hard to carry bucket, basically.

This thing about being able to socialise in a small bubble of close family from 1or 2 households looks promising anyway. Hoping to at least be able to go to families house for a small BBQ in the summer for a joint birthday meal as our birthdays will have been in lockdown and we've all been alone.

Don't think pubs will be open by then but wouldn't feel safe in a place with so many people so soon anyway so happier in large back garden with plenty of space between everyone! Even if we don't do physical contact it will be nice to sit in the same garden and chat for a few hours over a few chicken drumsticks and a drink!

So like Zor's wife is the "I can't sit still" kind, and unlike us she can't like pop online and find things to interest or entertain her- cuz it's just not her thing... so like she's taken to crazy house projects like cleaning baseboards, painting touchups, rearranging rooms, and trying to find any excuse to go out for a necessity- just to get moving and GO somewhere... TOTALLY drives us crazy. Cuz we're 20+ mins out of town, can't we go like 1-2 times a week?! Ugh. lol

And we "need to go get out". No, we don't. lol Even I, who generally disagrees with locking down ppl to this extreme and causing millions to lose jobs and struggle to feed themselves, locking up HEALTHY ppl as if sick... even _I_ find this excessive. lol BTW- we have serious disagreements internally about that, too. Kitten & Kaleb are all for basically most of how this is handled, and I'm not. Rare Kitten & I are at odds on anything- just ANOTHER stressor.

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Hi Zor and Pixie,

Must be a nightmare with someone who can't sit still and wants to go out all the time in these circumstances. Hope you've been ok. Sarah

Sarandipity wrote:Hi Zor and Pixie,

Must be a nightmare with someone who can't sit still and wants to go out all the time in these circumstances. Hope you've been ok. Sarah

It's also kinda like tough, too, cuz she doesn't like get that we ALL need personal time and time to communicate, do things we enjoy, etc... and that's like the hardest part- cuz she doesn't wanna do stuff with like the rest of us at all still. :/

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We're hearing too many sirens in town this evening. We don't live in the city, but we are in a populated suburb. Even nowadays there usually not as many sirens as there have been this evening.

Maybe they're all responding to the same location. We're trying to ground and not think about it.

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