Our new Journey thread (Ponyta)

We recently had to deal with a vanished alter. Then we had to deal with what we think is a merge. We found both to be destabilizing.

We are also struck by waves of profound sorrow.

Hi Weirdo,

It's good to see you, but we're sorry that your host is upset. We hope things get better soon.

MDs

Thanks MDs! Your kind words are greatly appreciated!

littleDaria- I'm sorry to hear that. I hope things improve for y'all soon!


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I haven't heard anything from the search team for a few hours now. The last update said they're waiting on the edge of the forest. I suspect she (our main host) is talking with the wolf pack. I'm aware they would've realized she was there- within minutes- of entering their forest. We're worried- especially since our host hasn't come back yet. We might need to send one person in. I believe they would understand the situation. Although- maybe we could try hollering on one of them. I'm sure one of the pack would be willing to come talk to us. Yes- I believe I'll try that tonight. It's much better to attempt that- than to trespass on their land. We want to respect each other's property.

One of the wolves (last night)- verified our "main" host is with them. He said she was crying. Our host didn't return yet. I'm feeling very moody- very angry. That's not like me at all. I'm not sure why I feel that way. I hope our host is alright. There's the risk of her re-fragmenting. We hope that doesn't happen. As for why I'm so moody- I have yet to figure that out. None of us- in this immediate area- are feeling that way. Maybe it's our host? Even so- she doesn't act like that. Unless she's re-fragmenting. We hope not.

Plus on top of things- Bandit and Rebel disappeared. Maybe they went into the forest? I don't know. I do know they wanted to talk to her. I just realized maybe that's why I'm moody. Maybe one of the wolves are upset about that?

Bandit and Rebel both are back now. One of the wolves returned Rebel to us. Bandit couldn't find him. Luckily a member of the pack brought him back. They know he's just a child. The wolf was aware Bandit was in their forest as well- but apparently they gave him permission. However- this doesn't answer why I still feel so irritable. Maybe it's because I'm extremely worried. Our host still hasn't returned yet. The wolf said nothing about that matter. He left before I could even ask.

If we never went to our last appointment with our T- then this whole ordeal wouldn't have happened. That's what triggered this whole situation in the first place. It seems maybe we were better off not going. This is such a mess right now.

-Weirdo


Edit: I also want to add- Our host was super happy with the progress we were making. She was happy about everything- except for a little worry. Our T said stuff last time that really triggered her. We tried to protect her- but somehow she still found out what was said. So this is not good. I blame our appointment on her running off. Otherwise- I don't see what happened. She was perfectly fine before that appointment.

Hi Weirdo,

If you plan to continue seeing this T, it would be very important to let them know the impact of what they said, so they can try to repair what happened. I don't know if you or the host brought up how upsetting it was--unless the T knows, they can't apologize and try to fix it.

I'm sorry you guys are going through this right now.

Reading this reminded me of stuff about my last psychotic episode or what I sometimes think is inside outside because there was ware wolves. I'm going to write about it on my journey thread but I wanted to say thanks for accidentally jogging my memory. Sarah

TheGangsAllHere wrote:Hi Weirdo,

If you plan to continue seeing this T, it would be very important to let them know the impact of what they said, so they can try to repair what happened. I don't know if you or the host brought up how upsetting it was--unless the T knows, they can't apologize and try to fix it.

I'm sorry you guys are going through this right now.

Hey TheGangsAllHere! Thanks for your concern- it's greatly appreciated! I completely agree with you. We're a little leery about our next appointment- but we'll be sure to let our T know. Hopefully our T will help make things right. Thanks again!

-Weirdo

Sarandipity wrote:Reading this reminded me of stuff about my last psychotic episode or what I sometimes think is inside outside because there was ware wolves. I'm going to write about it on my journey thread but I wanted to say thanks for accidentally jogging my memory. Sarah

Hey Sarah- I'm hoping that was a good thing? Hopefully I didn't accidentally remind you of anything bad. If I did- I'm sorry. However- If that was a good thing- you're welcome!

I'm sorry- sometimes I have problems with understanding the context of what's been said. Probably due to what happened in our past. I do hope "jogging your memory" was for good however- and not bad.

-Weirdo

It was good because I forget the details of it and sometimes there's something useful in those details.

Sarandipity wrote:It was good because I forget the details of it and sometimes there's something useful in those details.

Okay. Thanks for clarifying! I'm glad to hear it was helpful.

--------------------------Our Update----------

Our host returned last night. She seems a little off. However- I think it has to do with another appointment coming up very soon. We're all worried about what our T will say. We hope things will improve- otherwise we'll have to consider yet another. I don't know. We really hate the idea of having to switch Ts again. I sure hope things will be alright with this one. We're having a lot of anxiety about this. Although- we're glad our host returned.

-Weirdo