Our new Journey thread (Ponyta)

I agree with you. Such fears should be faced from a place of safety, not forced onto you with close to no choice in it.

I hope things will get better with this T. Or, if they do not, that you can find a new, better T very soon.

-David-

We wanted to let you know we've read your posts and are wishing you all the very best!

It's tough with Ts... gosh, sometimes it's easy and great, other times not so at all... Yea, we've been there and we totally relate.

We agree with ArbeMonde, to make any choices from a place of safety and calm is very important. We've made a few rash decisions in our T experience, and some of them we wish we had done different, with more care for ourselves.

Wishing you all the very best with it!

Pastella
(and All)

Thank you David, and Pastella (and All)! We greatly appreciate your kind words!

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So I tried to write on here probably 8 or 9 times last night. Finally managed to post something....I don't even remember what exactly......but it was something to do with my frustration regarding this.

Someone kept taking over and deleting my posts before I could even submit them. When I finally managed to......he found the "delete" button. UGH!

I don't know why he keeps doing this. He finds it beyond hilarious. I tried asking him. All he does is laughs.....and.....Oh no! He's coming back. I need to log off before he realizes I wrote this.

Ponyta wrote:Possible trigger warning

So I tried to write on here probably 8 or 9 times last night. Finally managed to post something....I don't even remember what exactly......but it was something to do with my frustration regarding this.

Someone kept taking over and deleting my posts before I could even submit them. When I finally managed to......he found the "delete" button. UGH!

I don't know why he keeps doing this. He finds it beyond hilarious. I tried asking him. All he does is laughs.....and.....Oh no! He's coming back. I need to log off before he realizes I wrote this.

Possible trigger warning

I don't even think I made sense when I posted this. Basically there is a troublemaker who is tormenting me horribly bad. He showed up all of a sudden......but he claims he was watching me.

Anyway.....he made me sick today. I threw up a little. My inner friends are trying to help me.....so that's good. The guy isn't here right now......but I have a feeling he will be back. I don't even know what his name is.

He is acting worse than how Matt used to be (when he was a troublemaker)....so yeah.....really bad torment.

Matt used to be his friend. Matt came over to help me......but the guy wasn't nice to Matt either. He called Matt a traitor for being my friend....and for changing his troublemaking ways. So....... this isn't so good right now.

I'm sorry that this pattern keeps happening for you over and over. I hope you or someone else can talk to him and find out what he needs and what the rest of you can do to help him.

//sorry to hear some of your headmates are having such a problematic behavior.//

//I really hope this situation will find a resolution soon.//

//Ulysses//

Thank you TheGangsAllHere and //Ulysses// We greatly appreciate your kind words!


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The guy causing the most problems right now is named "Garrett". I just found out (he didn't tell me though). So this is kinda confusing......we have both a Gary and a Garrett. I don't think they are related in any way......but I'm not 100% sure.

Garrett has some other guys helping him. One of the other guys is named "Rockit". At least I think that's how he spells it. It could just be "Rocket". I'll have to clarify with him.....but as of right now......he's being very difficult. He travels with Garrett. So does another guy.....but his name is still unknown. That was really weird. When I wrote "unknown" (before I changed it).....I put it in capital and quotations..... like when I wrote the other names. I also got a strange feeling. Plus now I remember that name was floating for quite some time. Maybe he is the one known as "Unknown"?

Anyway......Garrett is coming over again. I need to log this before he deletes it. I had more to say.......but that's all for now.......I don't want to lose this post.

Sorry we haven't been very active on here (replying to other posts). It's very hard for me to concentrate lately......due to everything going on. I believe the others are having problems of their own too. Some are acting strange.....but tell me they're fine. I honestly don't think they are. I just don't know what to do.

I feel really strange. I know I must've switched and came back now. Not sure who was out. My mind just feels numb.

I do know Garrett was coming over earlier.......but.......I don't know. I feel so weird in the head right now. Feel like I lost a lot of time.....but don't know if I really did or not. It's such a weird feeling.

Well.....someone is watching me right now. I feel them. It's one of Garrett's friends. At least one of them keeps coming around all day today.

It's alright for me to write......right?

Trigger Warning
Some mean things Garrett did to my stuff (journal entries, drawings, etc.).....plus what he calls this destruction of my "property".

I feel bad right now. For some reason Garrett doesn't want me writing or drawing. Well.....there's other things he claims I'm not allowed to do either. Which is way out of bounds. I don't tell him what he can and can not do in his free time. It doesn't feel right to me. He literally comes over and will delete my stuff (digital writings). He even ripped my picture (I drew yesterday)..... out of my drawing tablet.... and tore my picture up. I found it in the garbage.....upon him laughing and asking me where my picture was.

As far as I know......none of the troublemakers treated me this bad before. I mean.....in this way. I had a little trouble with my journal entries before.....but nothing of this magnitude. Even Matt didn't deliberately destroy my drawings and stuff.

The worst part is.......Garrett claims this is all just one hilarious game. I don't know what to do. Oh no. Now I feel him coming again. He has this strong feeling about him. I don't know how to describe it.

I think Garrett is mad at me now. Even more so.......than maybe he was........

Trigger Warning
Fight...although I don't mention the main details

So Garrett was being ridiculous in our inner world last night. We got into a "fight". Well.....I'll call it a fight. He got injured by my self-defense. He seemed to be shocked. He hollered mean stuff at me.....and left. I feel really bad. He really did deserve it though due to how he acted last night.....he didn't really give me much of a choice.

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I don't know what to do. Well.....he hasn't come over to bother me today yet....nor has his friends. The thing is.......that doesn't make me feel good. I feel beyond terrible.

I don't know what to do. He was in the wrong last night......but still......I feel horrible about what happened.

Then again.......maybe he's using a tactic like David did before (when he was a troublemaker)? I don't know. I just know.....I feel really bad.