"Flip-flopped" again

Hey- so I don't understand this. I seem to be out more than our "main" host again. We seem to keep "flip-flopping". I'm not sure if this is good or bad. At first- I was very worried about this- but now I'm pretty used to it. So is our "main host". Although- a bad thing is I feel somewhat strange. I'm not sure how to explain it. It doesn't feel like how it usually feels when I'm out. It's almost as if I'm co-con with someone else- but even I don't know who. That's concerning. Being one of the protectors- I feel I should know what's going on.
Now I know that Maximus has trouble spelling. Maybe it's him- but none of us saw him in a long time. Plus- it doesn't feel like him. In fact- I'm very irritable right now. That's totally unlike me. I'm not very close to Maximus- but- last time I saw him- he wasn't like that either. We were doing better- other than a few issues- but now it seems our new T triggered something. (I don't even know how- nothing really was said yet) I noticed one of the others mentioned our "host's" complex issues. Well- normally she worries for a few hours. It's been several days now. She's still worrying. In fact- she said "Maybe it's best she goes into our world." She said "Maybe it's best to let someone else handle it". Maybe that's why we "swapped" roles again- although I'm not absolutely certain. We keep flip-flopping. It's confusing.
Another bad thing is- since I've been out a lot more than her (since our first appointment with our new T)- I discovered something happened to her while she was in our world. She's self-isolating in her room (our world) right now. She doesn't really want to talk about it. It has to do with at least 3 troublemakers- according to her. She doesn't know who they are either. We're trying to figure it out. One clue- however- she said they told her they were getting revenge for the 3 in our prison. So that helps narrow it down somewhat. We know these "guys" are from the Creeper world. The bad thing is- none of us really know much about that area.
I don't understand this. We were getting a tad better- except for a few issues. Now since our first appointment- with our new T- this mess is happening again. Our "main host" (we might need to give her a nickname)- is not happy. She's the one that really wanted us to get a new T. Now that we have one- she's feeling like maybe it's a bad idea. We're not sure what's going on. I was listening in to our first session- so were a few others. None of us know what happened to her. She did tell us that she thought our new T was nice and informative. She made another appointment- she seemed fine- but then told us she can't handle talking. Since then- she's been spending even more time in our world. Shadow and I were taking turns yesterday. It turns out that I'm still out this morning. We're really worried about her. Especially since she doesn't want to talk to us. That's completely unlike her.

We had a lot of flip-flopping when two parts were trying to merge about a year ago.

This is a little off-topic, so I apologize for that, but our system has noticed that imprisonment and punishment seems to be a significant, consistent thing in your system, and that it seems to always inflame relationships and create more stigma around parts who were locked up. We wonder if you all have explored why or whether there are solutions that would help to validate all of you as valuable and necessary parts of the system? We recall some inner relationships being really damaged by that sort of thing previously.

We're sorry things have been so difficult for so long. We hope things will get better for your system soon.

Crows

Hey- I just wanted to make a quick update. I was out all day again. It looks like I'm possibly the new "main" host as of now. Although I'm not going to absolutely assume it. It may just be that we're co-hosting. This happened before a few times. All those times I went back to my "normal role". Which I was hoping would happen. The one- that we refer to as the "main host"- will be given the nickname "Amy" for now. Honestly- I'm not sure why we picked that name for her (she's cool with it as well). It just stood out as the best choice.
Anyway- to get to the point- Amy (almost typed "main" host) is still upset. I don't blame her. At least we're beginning to get the issue under control. Something BIG is happening however (in our inner world)! She's bringing us together. A lot of us have been "missing". A lot of us have been self-isolating. Once the word got around that she needed help- people began coming from all over to help her. People we haven't seen in a long time. Some that refused to come to our "main" inner world- from the shadow world- came here. She is extremely happy about that. So this switch seems for the best.
Another note- we caught one of the 3 troublemakers. We're working together- looking for the other two.

-Weirdo