Therapist is leaving

I am distraught. Totally distraught in a way that is very scary. My therapist, who I have been with for about 15 years, is no longer working evenings and this means that I can no longer see her. She has given me some limited information but turns out she seems to have found some bloke with children and she wants to be around in the evenings. My rational brain thinks its fair enough but the rest of me is all manner of ###$ up about it.
I spoke to her tonight and I went from being irrationally angry (the weekend was full of terrible anger and I didn't know why) to being in floods of tears and not being able to stop. I haven't stopped since and I am panicking as I need to go to bed for work tomorrow but I am just too upset.
She has said she can give me an early evening appointment for the next 6 months to work things out but realisiically it will be a move to another therapist. I am completely devastated. I struggled to feel connected to her the whole time I was seeing her and now she says she is leaving, I feel it full force but its too late.
I have no friends and limitied family. I can't talk to anyone about this but it feels like a death - and the death of a very close person, at that.
I can't explain just how horrible I feel and how scary it is to be this upset and on my own.

We are here for you Jolly Jo.

It's OK to grieve. Relationship break ups are messy. And she has been a part of your life for a long time. You will get through this. Whatever you are feeling now will fade.

And we will always be here as a digital shoulder to cry on.

Mo x (we need a hugging emoji)

We're sorry, Jolly jo.

MDs

I know that has to be so hard. I am dreading it myself because my therapist is an older woman. The seperation that her passing may bring. I'm so sorry.

I'm really sorry this is happening, Jolly jo.

Hi Jolly Jo,

That totally sucks! I wish you could keep seeing her just like before.

Iain

Hey Jollly jo,

We're really sorry this is happening.

I hope you can work with her over the 6 months to deal with the hurt and stuff. And maybe she can help you find someone new.

Good luck.

Viola

I have never experienced something so painful. I didn't think I was particularly attached to her and we spent a lot of time in therapy talking about that. She says she knew I was attached but no I know too. I don't think I have ever been attached to someone else and the only word I can use to describe this is painful. I didn't manage to stay at work. I came home after lunchtime. I looked terrible. I woke up looking like I had been punched in the face. Someone asked me if I had had an allergic reaction to something. I am in a complete state.

Some of you are feeling lost, hurt, and scared because of this and it's 100% understandable. Some of them are probably littles, they would be for us. If so, we're really sorry that it feels so bad and that it's scary. It just hurts when someone you can trust can't be there in the same way. Things will get better.

Even if you're not sure who among you are most hurt, it should help them cope by reaching out to them however that works. Asking who's most hurt might help, addressing everyone or just the ones most hurt without asking them to step forward may help also.

You can let them know what you can offer them, such as one or more hosts, any alter(s) who are interest in helping others inside, or even someone outside the body. You could also let them know what you're looking for in the way of a new therapist. Ultimately, self-help is a key goal of DID therapy but there are limits.

It may be even more important to ask everyone who's upset what would help them to feel better. Whatever you do, it will depend on what works for your system.

Is there any possibility that your therapist would be able to do some Skype's or phone calls as part of a plan to transition? I think it would help us in such a situation to know that it wasn't a cold turkey forever change, that you might be able to reach out for a period of time. We can be so triggered by forever things.

Some of us were attached to a therapist we stopped seeing ~5 years ago when she retired. Last Friday we asked our once-every-couple-months shrink (not therapist) who sees her in social situations sometimes how she's doing (fine) and asked him to deliver a hi from us, which he said he would certainly do. That made some of us happy.

Thank you everyone , for your wise words. She is going to help me find someone and there well be an over lap whilst I make the move, I expect.
As for the little ones, I can't even begin to think about the impact of this on them - I have ignored and repressed them so far as I haven't the strength to manage them as well as me.
Wasn't able to go to work today. I think I had a huge migraine - and spent the day feeling like I got run over by a bus. This is making me feel physically ill.