Nervous to discuss potentially having DID with my therapist

Hey, um yeah. The boyfriend and I decided to see where things go, we are giving each other a bit more space but he did come back home with me. The last months were too much stress and we were too much on top of each other, he actually said he sometimes enjoyed it when I switched cause he got to hang out with someone else for a bit.. he worded it much nicer though.

Im at the therapists waiting room right now and very nervous.
He didn't accompany me, but he said if I can't word it myself or if it didn't go well today he would come with me next session, 13/01.
I might also stay at my moms a weekend, in order to give him some alone time. We live in almost a studio apt so almost impossible to have your own space.

Anyways.. thanks a lot for the support and advice, hopefully I can update soon.

First off, sorry for the doublepost.

As an update, I stuttered out "are you familiar with the concept of DID?" to the therapist and then started crying. In hindsight it was a bit funny, especially from an onlookers point of view.

As it turns out, he did. He apparently is specialized in it and dealt with it more frequently. He completely put me at ease and started telling me little stories of experiences he had had with it. It really helped me as well cause I could tell him about a story where I came home and my cupboard was filled with candy instead of actual food.

He was very nice and instead of emdr I received a different sort of hypnotherapy. It made a huge difference!
I went in there shaking and stressing, and when I came out the people at the desk said I was a completely different person. (I mean I was but hey, was nice of them to notice.)

I have spent the rest of the day feeling a lot more at ease and with more mental clarity than before, which I am super grateful for.
Tomorrow I have my regular psychologist and as nervous as I was today, I think I feel safe enough to tell her as well tomorrow, because the therapist today really made me feel safe, which is a new feeling.
If it doesn't turn out well with her at least I know I have one therapist who I can trust with this. Which is more than I had yesterday!

I really feel more confident, like he said I would.. I am so happy.
I think my boyfriend is noticing it too, because I am perfectly fine with not getting attention from him, which has caused him to give me attention in return. The irony haha.

I wouldn't have done it without you all helping me. Thank you so much! You very well may have helped me change my life today.

-Alix

Hi,

I hope everything with your T went ok. Lots of us have totally been there.

Good luck!

Iain