How often do mental switched happen for you?

Sometimes it happens often. For a while it was very fluid, fitted with our routine, good compromise was there and mostly parts stayed on the same page.

Then there was crisis. Parts that don't usually front often had to front. It messed up our life, we phoned the police to report or parents, went to psychiatric hospital, quit our job, couldn't remember what the part who called the police said so they couldn't do anything, switch switch switch. Was bad.

Feel like I'm getting into a more settled routine again now, switching seems to have calmed down and perhaps some parts are temporarily melded together, that's how it feels and what would make sense.

I've starved myself, got fat. Practiced different religions at the same time. Had different life goals that conflict. It's challenging to get everyone to agree.

ButterflyBrains, I met the criteria and was diagnosed with BPD at one time. From that experience it is my opinion that BPD is a manifestation of attachment trauma. Things that are normal to adults can can be traumatizing to a child who is much more sensitive than an adult. I don't know very much about current theory or treatment of BPD, but I describe my observations.

***TRIGGER WARNING*** analyzing BPD as a dissociative disorder

The aspects presenting themselves are babies or very young children that have not yet developed a sense of self. They cannot get their biological attachment needs met, and they cannot soothe themselves. They feel empty because there is nothing to connect to. They rapidly switch between attachment vs. avoidance. It's like “get the heck away from me no wait don't leave!”

***END TRIGGER***

That's like disorganized attachment. Now for me it sometimes creates sensations like flashing and banging inside of my brain.

myce wrote:***TRIGGER WARNING*** analyzing BPD as a dissociative disorder

The aspects presenting themselves are babies or very young children that have not yet developed a sense of self. They cannot get their biological attachment needs met, and they cannot soothe themselves. They feel empty because there is nothing to connect to. They rapidly switch between attachment vs. avoidance. It's like “get the heck away from me no wait don't leave!”

***END TRIGGER***

Oh, myce, you don't know how much I relate to this.

Thank you for validating my experience.

Charity