I know almost anything is normal in DID, I'm not asking because of that. I'm just wondering is it common to feel your parts like they would be outside of the body, have you felt that way?
Some time ago, like months ago I was minding my own business and suddenly felt Jules, he was still called Fourteen, close to me. Like he would be sitting next to me, on my right side. I didn't see or hear anything, I felt he was there, and felt how much I had missed him, he had been away for months because he was feeling too bad. I imagined wrapping my hands around him and he kind of leaned towards me and I leaned my cheek on top of his head. I didn't physically move, so in a way this was happening inside our mind, but it felt like it would happen out here.
Not long after that he came back, same way, I hugged him again and suddenly he changed into little who had their hands wrapped around my arm and really scary feeling was coming from the little one. At first it felt like the little is the scary one, before I realized of course not, they were sharing emotion of being really scared, but then they were already gone, before I had time to say right things.
Now it has happened twice with Sami. I've been missing him, actively thinking of him (writing about him) and felt like he would hug me from behind. Both times I was siting on the sofa, so it kind of happens inside the mind, it doesn't make even sense otherwise, and I don't actually feel, hear or see anything, just have feeling about it happening. Not even a picture, just feeling, without feeling physical touch. That has happened now twice, same way, him hugging me from behind, putting his head on my shoulder.
It feels like it would happen in there, where I physically am, but in a way inside the mind because it's not hallucination. I can't access inner worlds, and other than these 4 times I've felt their presence like they're inside the head or in body or just "close".I don't know where "close" physically would be.
Do you have experiences with your parts, like you would kind of have two separate bodies, although you can't access the place where they have their own bodies?
I'm not used to being physically touched. We were never touched as kids, like hugged or anything, there has not been any physical closeness but the things that had to (when really small). I'm also introverted and don't feel hugging is anything that usually feels good. It's crossing physical boundaries. But maybe that's all learned, because I've been really close with my pets, and these experiences with parts, it feels really good and safe to be hugged, like someone cares. I'm not used to anyone caring about me that way.
I don't know if I could ever feel cared like that if someone other bodied person would hug me, even in same manner, I think it would feel uncomfortable who ever it would be. But now I know how it can feel like if you feel comforted by a hug. But that's kind of OT, this was just to ask if you have experienced anything like this in your system? Are you physically close with other parts?