Seeking aid

Hello,
I'm new to this whole thing, still trying to figure out what exactly is going on with me. I have been in a constant state of severe dissociation for the last 23 years, only the last 6 months have been relatively clear in which i can actually feel real and honestly sometimes its far too intense.
I have alot of black outs, where i know that something did happen but i cant recall exactly what did, but i always seen to be half awake in the middle of it.
I am desperately trying to find answers and figure things out, but i feel alone in all this.
I would love to find someone to talk to a about this or even hear someones story.
Much Love.

Hi Elme,

Welcome to the forum. There's lots of friendly & helpful folks here.

Sorry I can't talk much now, we're kinda exhausted. But I wanted to say hi.

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Hopefully you've picked up that you can hear someone's story by reading through threads on this forum. Start with ones whose titles spur your interest. If you have a dissociative disorder, including DID, just participate here, which can start out as just reading posts if that's what's most comfortable, then replying when you have something to add. Even a "hi, I'm new too" reply to another brand new poster can make you feel a connection.

Nobody should have to feel alone in this. Do you have a therapist or have you spoken to any sort of professional about what you're experiencing?