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I was also reading that voices aka thoughts with schizophrenia indistinguishable. Mine definitely are DID peoples are not. Also thst DID peoples chatter is about things relative to their life like I'm am going to buy that coat but I dont like it. I want brown. I could be thinking I need a shower and my thoughts would say after dinner clouds. Doesn't it sound much more like schizophrenia? The only thing is, is they dont sound like they are from the outside like schizophrenia.

Nope. Having fears about things isn't schizophrenia. Hearing voices is a very non-specific symptom that can be due to many things. NOTHING you have mentioned points toward schizophrenia. If you don't want it and would rather not have it, and your psychologist doesn't think you have it, and people on a DID forum don't think you have it, then I don't know why you keep harping on it.

As I have said several times, you need to look at the feelings around having DID--whether there are fears about what it means, or a belief that you don't "deserve" to have coped with your trauma this way, or whatever it is. One way of trying to figure this out is to decide to have a hypothesis that you DO have DID, and see where that takes you.

That means you spend your time being curious about what you're experiencing. Such as, instead of dismissing what your psychologist told you about the littles, how about thanking them for letting you know that they were scared about what you were watching, and making a plan with them about how to deal with that (you avoid watching those movies, or you make a place for the littles to go while you're watching them, etc).

If you just keep trying to find reasons why you might have schizophrenia when you clearly don't, it is obviously a way of avoiding other things, such as getting to know each other better inside.

How does magical thinking not point to schizophrenia? DID people dont get paranoid they are going to gain telekinesis by seeing it on tv. Schizophrenics also have random thoughts not related to anything. DID: example I want that coat no it's not purple I want blue. Schizophrenic example which sounds like me: I might go to the beach one day next week accompanied by after dinner clouds.
They also say they can't tell there parts apart because there is no distinguishable pattern like a little it just all sounds the same. This is all me in a nutshell. As much as I hate it.

All children have magical thinking.

I don’t think you are trying to understand the meaning of what they’re saying to you.

Having a fear about having something is different than actually having it.

And once again, it doesn’t feel like you read and took in what I wrote, so I’m done trying for now.