When to know somethings wrong

I have noticed that I sometimes answer myself when I have a thought with another thought. Like I dont want want to xyz. Why would you want to xyz? Since my alters dont sound like voices and just thoughts when should I be afraid I am actually going crazy? Answering myself like that?

What does "going crazy" mean?

Plenty often someone in our system says they want to do something that I definitely don't. OSDD-1 means you have emotional amnesia but retain factual memory, so you remember doing things or saying things that other alters did or said but you don't emotionally connect with other alters' desires. I have had a conversation like what you described before. Sometimes I get really embarrassed or exasperated with sentiments other alters have because it what I want or care about at all.

Dnester wrote:I have noticed that I sometimes answer myself when I have a thought with another thought. Like I dont want want to xyz. Why would you want to xyz? Since my alters dont sound like voices and just thoughts when should I be afraid I am actually going crazy? Answering myself like that?

Often "voices" sound like my own thoughts and I answer "myself" like this often. "myself" is purely a psychological concept btw... Its an ego concept. All psychology and psychiatry is theory, like all science.

Anyway answering yourself: there's at least 3 possible options 1. You are critically thinking 2. It's alters having a discussion 3. You're crazy.

Let's go with critical thinking for a moment. Critical thinking is analysing a subject. Let's take something simple "I want a banana" (1st thought) some people wouldn't question that and eat a banana. A critical thinker may question it "why do I want a banana" then a critical thinker will answer themselves. Now if you have alters with different likes and dislikes, with different knowledge or opinions you may get alot of chatter about bananas.

Eg "maybe my body is lacking potassium so I'm wanting a banana" "but I don't really like bananas, isn't there anything else I can eat with potassium in?" "could just take vitamins and minerals, that would cut out alot of nutrition problems" "well not really because certain things need to be digested with other things and they won't process in the body easily without them" "I just want a banana" "I like yellow" "I don't like bana flavoured sweets" "ok all that's irrelevant, let's just eat a banana"

So my way to view it is that it's critical thinking but I have alters so I get actual conflicting opinions that those alters can be passionate about. So it increases my ability to critically think.

That's how I see it. Or I'm crazy. Sometimes I'm pretty sure I'm definitely crazy like the time I was debating with myself whether it was in fact possible we're in a Matrix type universe which obviously caused alot of anxiety and paranoia in alters not mentally able to handle considering that as a real concept.

That wasn't exactly the thought process. I wrote that because I couldnt remember exactly what went on. Usually my chatter is all over the place, out of the blue. I never ask myself a question and answer it. That's why I am scared it means I am going crazy. Usually I have random thoughts like I love you. Do you want to snuggle etc. Never asking and answering of questions that seem like it's both coming from me.

Except that's exactly what you've been complaining that you DON'T ever have, and you've been using the fact that you don't have it as "proof" that you don't have alters. Now you're taking an example of communicating with them in a back and forth way and trying to make it into something other than DID.

So it doesn't mean you're "going crazy," because this is what is supposed to happen as you become more tuned into all these dissociated thoughts and feelings. It's common to get scared though, when that happens, so maybe you can remember your grounding skills and reassure whoever is scared that this is all normal for DID.

Thanks guys