***May Trigger***(cussing and mention of self harm)*****
These are thoughts not voices. I am been writing them done over several weeks time. Not all of them of course.
Thought said early abuse out of the blue.
Thinking about getting Chinese food and thought said I dont want to f'n die.
Thinking I dont want throat cancer. Someone said you are a little baby.
Thinking about if Dr. C would let me play with the toys in her office since someone said their T lets them. Thought said Ahh $#%^!
Thinking I dont have amnesia and thought said do you want to hug me. It was so real it scared me.
Thinking about missing my mental health skill builders when I cant see them and someone said beauty after bruises I said, because I was in the process of looking up that site. Btw good site if interesting. Debunking DID myths.
Thinking about getting a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde tattoo and thought said eat your dinner mfer. I wasn't eating
Thinking about someone saying hypnosis may be a good idea but may not work. Thought said stop touching me.
Thinking of someone I miss. Thought said I love you. Hug me.
Thinking they better change my diagnosis on my chart. Accompanied by the thought umm momma.
Thinking about if my counselor were here. Thought said Highland Park boulevard mfer
Thought will you wake me up at night
Thinking about how bad mom scares me falling asleep driving. Then thought do you want to snuggle.
Thinking about sleep meds for some reason and knowing I can't breath in my sleep as it is. Thought said do you want to sleep?
Thinking about how someone said something that didnt make sense. Thought said share a sentence.
Thinking about if Dr. B my sleep doctor is going to put me on oxygen. Thought said let me see it.
Thinking about if Dr.C told me to lose weight. Thought said Lewis what the hell is wrong with you. Dont know anyone named Lewis.
Thinking about doing exercises and thought said don't touch me.
Thinking about Dr.C telling me I had alters and thought Oh shut up!
Saw a bird out the corner of my eye. Reminded me of when I see those little black things. Thought thats a cute bird I love him. I dont like birds.
Scrolling through fb and thought said awww you little $#%^. I was just looking at random peoples posts.
Thinking about how my alter were created to handle sexual abuse. Thought said I am going to slit your wrist.
Thinking about how the doctor said he wouldn't want my heart rate getting higher than 130. Thought said ok love you.
Reading something about a couple turning there farm into a animal sanctuary. Thought said awww that's a little baby.
Thinking about moving and if bed bugs might still be in the stuffed rabbit my dad gave me. Thought said it doesnt mean they are not still in there.
Watching the tight wire act. Thought that is crazy. Thought said ok shhh
Does this sound like alters or random thought?