Do they?

I have that used to sound like me. I know now that she has been co-con with me since the first fracture. She now has a different voice in my head (and she sounds different than me on the outside too). Not sure what changed. It may be like SoHank said, she was comfortable with me knowing it was her, so she dropped the act of pretending to be me.

The other one was one of the last ones to come out (I can't remember if she was last or next to last). She still sounds like me in my head, I just know it's her because of how she feels. I can't really explain it. She also looks and sounds the most like me on the outside, even my husband will sometimes not realize that she's out until she uses a phrase that I don't, or acts in a way that is not normal for me.

The others have had their own voices in my head ever since they first revealed themselves to me.

K

My thoughts are always in a form of a conversation. Someone is telling something to someone. Sometimes it's me, for example talking to my T in my mind about something I'm thinking about. It can be anyone I know I talk to. At the moment I'm dog sitting, for a week, and while owners are gone, I live at their house as I almost always do with this doggy. I saw a journal on the table in here, exactly same kind I have, actually I have several of them, they're just bigger in size than the one on the table in here. When I saw and recognized it, I thought how I would say it to the dog owners, if they were here. But they're not, so I said it just in my mind "to them".

I don't know how to think if not with words like talking to someone.

Sometimes it's someone else talking. When I'm learning something new, it's usually Rami who "knows" about the thing, (also when we actually don't know about it yet, but are just gathering info about it) and teaches it to someone in my head. If it's something we don't know that much about yet, but do think about it, we make up our own facts about it, and replace them with actual facts, when we get them. In order to learn, we need to teach, and that's how we handle new information. It can be someone else as well who is teaching. When I was learning basics of BDSM, it was first Rami, but once Anastasia "was ready", it was her, since she actually gives lectures about it in the inner world (debunking myths etc, for people outside of the scene). If I need to learn about something totally outside world related, like new things at work, it will be me teaching that thing to someone I just imagine, like it would be me who knows about it.

And then there's me just sinking in the inner world, and someone in there is talking about something. Something that has happened to them, something they are interested in, their opinions on things, and random chat when there's many of them there and no one is having a monologue. But in my mind there's always lot of words, way more words than pictures. It's still kind of my thoughts, it's never on the background when I concentrate in something else. For me, concentrating in something in real world shuts the talking and keeps me here. But the time I can be like that is the time I can stay focused enough to actually pay all my attention to that outside thing, what ever it is. When my mind starts wandering, someone will be talking to someone else, either me or some insider.

All these used to be with my voice as, but it's changing now. I can also kind of decide how I hear it, with my voice or theirs, if it's internal talking from part to another part (but not to me, then it's their voice). I think it's because I don't ACTUALLY hear anything, so before I assumed it was just me always, and no one from inside never spoke to me, so it all felt my thoughts and imagination. I think I just assumed it's my voice, and therefor "heard" it like that. Now that things have changed, when they speak to me, it's with their voices, and also I'm starting to hear it with their voices when they talk inside to each other, and I didn't before. But yeah, it's silent voices, so I think I "heard" it like I assumed it would be, just me. Now I assume it's them, and "hear" them. It changed when they started communicating with me (and I with them), that was first without words, just feelings and knowing reasons, but then it started to be words as well. And those words have always been with their voices. And when I learned how their voices sound like, it started to be like that also when it's them talking to each other. They're always talking about inside stuff tho to each other, I've never heard them talking together with anything outside related.

I know some people have constant chatter on the background that they can find very tiring, but I've never had that. And I love the feeling of telling stories in my mind, them talking about them with each other. Them in the inner world, that is my safe place. I don't belong in there and can't access as myself, but I can "hear" them, and "see" them too. In a way I am them.

I dont see them. The thoughts also dont communicate with me in sentences. They say think off the wall things unrelated to what is going on in my normal thought processes. Like I was freaking out about my mom falling asleep while driving picking me up from the group home. Suddenly I had the thought do you want to snuggle. What does that have to do with anything? Sometimes the word hambone pops in my mind from time to time. I also dont see them. I used to think I could.

I dont see them. The thoughts also dont communicate with me in sentences. They say think off the wall things unrelated to what is going on in my normal thought processes. Like I was freaking out about my mom falling asleep while driving picking me up from the group home. Suddenly I had the thought do you want to snuggle. What does that have to do with anything? Sometimes the word hambone pops in my mind from time to time. I also dont see them. I used to think I could.