For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

Hi,

Colin is really good at protecting us and we try really really hard not to be scared because Colin will be there.

Evan

im just real lonely and real sore and it sucks and ive had enuff.

I just wanna make friends who like me for me and not for hazel

and and and i dont wanna feel like the only other pepel like me out there are pepel who get little to get sexed. Getting sexed is scary

I don't fink no littles here do littles to do the s%* stuff. Being naky is yucky.

Eliseahorse wrote:I don't fink no littles here do littles to do the s%* stuff. Being naky is yucky.

im friends with a little and she does that stuff but its not bad for her if tis sade, i dunno. i dont think its ever gonna be safe for me

I think thats why our bigs decided it better to live on our own. years ago though when the hosts didn’t know about the rest of us and had lot of social pressure to be like everyone else they had some boyfriends, we just had to go deep inside.

Then we learned about Autism..well one of the hosts did by accident cos of a work experience at a school. and Bobby really identified with one of the kids. In them days autistic kids weren’t expected to get married and stuff so we went for diagnosis and Bobby came out to take the test so we got diagnosed with it.

Then people didn’t expect our host to have sex and get married and have kids with them anymore.

but now there’s lots of people in newpapers like celebritys and stuff saying they have autism and they are married and sometimes have kids who are autistic too so the bigs have to think of other reasons they can’t do the ‘normal life/sex stuff' to protect us.

Lily

Being asexual is a queer identity now.

Eliseahorse wrote:Being asexual is a queer identity now.

I don’t think any of our bigs think they are asexual or gay. They tell us its because Bobby has always had severe issues with 'intimate physical contact’ cos we used to get held down for blood/medical tests, during seizures etc

the bigs that do all the masking infront of other people tend to say whatver they think is the most acceptable..usually ‘physical reasons’ like too ill/disabled (housebound/bedbound from chronic fatigue/arthritis) are more socially acceptable to most neurotypical peoples.

we have to stay covert so we don’t get targeted by bullies. people are kinder if you’re in a wheelchair and its something simple they can understand. The covid thing helped when everyone had to stay inside or had family that got really sick from it. I think it helps cos our body is older now too and thats all other bigs see..the ‘outside’ of us.

Lily

I hate bein in this body I feel like Mr Glass there are so many fun fings what I wanted to do but I was to little but now I'm in a big body I cant do them cos I might break. Stupid britle bones. I can't go rollerskating or trampolining or bungee jumping or rolercosters. I cant do any fun stuff. Today I was playing on a game an I started to feel really sick an the bigs said no more screen time you giving us a migraine I was only on for like 10 minuets.

Eliseahorse wrote:Today I was playing on a game an I started to feel really sick an the bigs said no more screen time you giving us a migraine I was only on for like 10 minuets.

What game was it? Were you sat very close to a big screen? Bobby says if you sit further away at eye level with the screen so you can see the area around the TV too (ie the wall around/behind it) it can ‘ground’ your brain cos being able to see the area around the game NOT moving helps your brain work out whats happening.

Also if game is small view like looking through a telescope eg first person shooter can make motion sickness bad. switch to 3rd person or so can see the whole scene at once on the screen.

If its an handheld looking down all time can make it worse if its a switch you can play it in desktop mode and use an external controller so can place it on a table in front of you at eye level we do that when we’re laid in bed with it on an overbed tabe and a seperate controller.

we found this it might help?

https://umatechnology.org/video-game-mo ... solutions/

I can come out to play on my new games today cos our dog is better so the bigs don’t have to worry about us maybe having to rush to vet hospital with him.

Lily

Eliseahorse wrote:I hate bein in this body I feel like Mr Glass there are so many fun fings what I wanted to do but I was to little but now I'm in a big body I cant do them cos I might break. Stupid britle bones. I can't go rollerskating or trampolining or bungee jumping or rolercosters. I cant do any fun stuff. Today I was playing on a game an I started to feel really sick an the bigs said no more screen time you giving us a migraine I was only on for like 10 minuets.

our body's real fragile too but not relaly in the same way
um
being disabled is hard and im still annoyed by a lot of it cos I wanna do stuff but we need to lie down a lot and i dont like lieing down a lot. Still, there's fun stuff you can do that you wont get hurt maybe. um we're going to a dinosaur museum when our pain is better which i hope is soon cos the bigs are trying real hard to get us a special medicine and that's gonna be good. Maybe there's a children's or science or natural history museum near you and you can see cool stuff and make it a fun day!!!!! If we wanna do the big museum though we're probably gonna have to borrow a wheelchair from my aunt and get a friend to push me . its hard.
love you!!!!!!!!!!
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