For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

You don't have to look after him.
Depending on your finances you could get a carer to come in
Is the house you live in his house or your house?
If it is your house you can just say no
He can be discharged into an old pepols home

The house is our dad's. Our sister wants dad to stay with her this winter and we hope he says yes. Everyone is trying to get him help. I just want him gone. I miss mom. She took care of me when dad would run off.

Marcie

So this morning I woke up at about 5:30 seriously believing I was 14 years old. Planned out my whole day accordingly. School, what I was gonna wear and how I was gonna wear it and decided on how to retaliate towards my mother when she decided to beat me but I don't even remember her beating me when I was 14 but during this episode I knew that she did.

Then I slowly started to remember that I'm not there anymore. Not sure how to feel about this.

Umm why not wear what you wanna wear. We gots a whole wardrobe of fing what only one person wears when they wanna . Why not pretend you are in the movie "big" you still 14 but you gots to run a big body. I gots my own clothes. I gots a dinasaw jumper what is just for me so even if we gots to do boring stuff like shopin or chores I. Still me I'm still 7 I just a time traveler what has been 7 a long time.

Its good you realised you are safe thats good groundin
You did realy well you should feel proud

That's funny. I can't see how I would have got away with wearing a school uniform, especially not as in my head I was gonna tailor it to make it look even more inappropriate.

That's why I was thinking my mum would beat me up if I did that to my clothes but at the time I was still determined to do it.

We was watching Liv do the washing this morning and we like all the lovely things coming out of the washer and it made us remember when we didn't used to have all nice lovely things to wear. We're lucky now.

Sometimes it's hard because the words won't come out when we try and say things because the words feel too big

I think it's hard when we're switching sometimes because it makes me feel a bit scared because my head goes funny and I don't wanna be like this when there is people with me because I have to try and act like nothing is happening when I feel like I just wanna curl up in a ball. When I'm with my T or my bf I can close my eyes and go asleep but if I'm with anyone else I can't do that and I have to stay awake and it's so hard to do because even the sound of my own voice is weird so I don't wanna talk and my eyes feel pressure and they go red but I can't close them. But I'm coming through it now. But I don't know how my voice will be when I speak. Inside my head I'm a little so I'm thinking my voice will wanna say little things. I'll just keep my mouth shut until I've come through this process. I can do that.

I feels so sad. Went to see T and talked about what my mum used to do to me and how hard it was to just survive when I was young.

The good thing is that he is extending our time into next year.

We're going on a trip to see the husband's family for Thanksgiving but everything is messed up because the person who usually has everyone over to her big house, and does all the cooking and everything still has covid and her son just caught it, and we had to find another place for some of the people to stay and for us all to cook Thanksgiving dinner, and now we're worried we picked someplace too small, and everyone will hate us.

We couldn't even sleep, so we looked at all the pictures of the place again, and maybe it will be ok. We're still staying at the same hotel where we always stay, but then we have to go to this little airbnb where some of the people will be, and not to the nice big house where we always hang out each year.

Anyway, it's not a bad problem like some people have, but we really wanted everything to be the same this year as it always is, and we had to decide really fast yesterday about the airbnb and maybe it won't be good and then it will be our fault.

Gang kids