For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

We're really really tired today because a lot of nights we just sleep for 4 hours and then wake up and can't fall back to sleep. So last night we just lay awake from 4 until 7:30 and then got up and it feels like we're going to waste the whole day, but we can't because there's so much to do and the husband went on a trip today, so we have to do all of his things also. People feel sad and upset and SO TIRED!! And we can't get our brain to calm down and go back to sleep when we wake up like that. Right now we really hate our brain.

And then we just sit at the computer and the time keeps passing and it gets later and later.

very sad Gang kids
P.S. Sorry about your cat Ruth I hope she comes back

TheGangsAllHere wrote:We're really really tired today because a lot of nights we just sleep for 4 hours and then wake up and can't fall back to sleep. So last night we just lay awake from 4 until 7:30 and then got up

our bigs can't sleep and get very tired and grumpy..we have noises in our ears all the time when you go to the front. Kit made a shield for the inside we can go in the holodeck and not hear it in there. but someone has to stay at the front!

Jay told us some people are bringing new hearing aids soon that will help the noises go away. Maybe our bigs won't be so tired and grumpy! I'd like to listen to some music better while we paint or draw like we used to be able to do and not hear those other noises all the time! but sometimes our hands hurt really bad too and we can't do much. I wish our outside body could stay young too!

Susie

Hi Susie--Sorry your bigs are tired and grumpy. It sounds hard to hear noises in your ears and have your hands hurt. Life just isn't fair.

We can do a lot of stuff, but the bigs only want to do things that they think count as important and not things that just help us FEEL BETTER. And they don't listen when we like something if THEY think it won't help them "make progress" or something like that.

We LIKED the class we tried last week, but the bigs said it wouldn't help us learn a lot more about the thing we took it for. But we LIKED the people and the teacher, and we were good at it. The bigs said we shouldn't take a class where we're MORE experienced than a lot of the other people because we wouldn't learn enough. So they dropped it without even checking with us, and then yesterday when we realized we probably wouldn't ever see those people again and wouldn't get to sit in that classroom with them, we were really really SAD. The bigs just always make us go in the opposite direction from what makes us happy and toward things that are "good for us."

Like, we might go to the beach tomorrow, and go boogie boarding, because it's really hot here right now, but they're only letting us go and have fun there because it also counts as exercise.

Gang kids

Hi Gang Kids

We think fun is important too cos its important to be happy. You can learn things having fun too. Things are better here I have a mummy and daddy and little brother on the inside farm too now. Sometimes mummy needs to come out and help Jay too and she told me I'm important too cos when I come out to play it makes the bigs feel happy too.

People disappear from our life too and we never get chance to say bye or let them know we liked them. What is Boogie Boarding? Do you dance on a board?

Its cold and grey (sky) here..I have to go so Jay can get dressed and take Mr Woof out before it starts to rain heavy.


Susie

Hey Gang kids
You want me to message your bigs an tell them to stop bein meanies? You should be allowed to make friends an class is a realy good way to make friends an you don't have to be getting bettered all the time. Sometimes just practicin what you know is good too.

Always pushin an pushing is a sure way to feel sad.

Its ok to be a big fish in a small pond ifn you keep lookin for bigger ponds eventually you gonna get eaten by a shark.

Speakin of sharks my body bord has got dolfin pictures on it so ifn ever a shark sawed me the dolphins would scare it away.

Thank you Peter and Susie. You guys are so nice it made us cry (in a good way).

Susie--boogie boarding is kind of like surfing except the board is shorter and not so hard, and you just lie on it instead of standing up. So you try to catch waves and let them carry you into shore, but you can't really get hurt like with surfing. But you're right that boogie usually means to dance, so I'm not sure why it's called that! Peter called it a body board, so maybe that's another name for it.

Peter--you're really smart and right about the ponds. We were really feeling sad today about not being in a musical that we turned down a part for because it wouldn't "challenge" us. And also because everyone that tried out got a part. But it still would have been fun, and not getting a big part doesn't mean I'm not talented--it can mean all kinds of things. And just because everyone got a part doesn't mean I'm not talented either. And we get extra sad when we don't have enough stuff to do that gets us out of the house with other people.

We just had lunch and now we're going to go to the beach. And we won't get fat in ONE DAY if we don't get a ton of exercise. (Telling that to the bigs AND to Nadia who makes sure we don't eat too much and wants us to exercise a lot every single day.)

Thanks you guys.
Gang kids

Hi Gang Kids

When our body was little too we (mainly me and Bobby..helping me write this) always have to be 'learning to be normal' and copying other kids and we always had to do educational stuff so we 'caught up'. we just split again and let others deal with outside and me and Bobby stayed inside with Phoenix and made our inside world really big and amazing!

Our outside body is 54 now and host Jay is, but we still have our inside world which is now more important to us than the outside cos we never got to have fun just being ourselves on the outside when the body was our age.

Maybe you should build yourself a Narnia to have fun in if your bigs won't let you have fun on the outside?

Susie

Hi Susie,

We're going to keep doing real stuff for as long as we can, because for us, real stuff is way more fun than pretend, and we don't really have an inside world. I guess someday if our body can't do all the things we love, we can imagine doing those things. I mean, running is not so much fun anymore as it used to be, and it feels more jolty than it used to, so now if we want to go fast and far, it's more fun to ride a bike. But we're still moving fast on the outside and not just in our imagination.

And it was so much fun being in the cold ocean on Friday and riding fast on the waves, and the sun was warm and so was the sand, and even though we had to go there alone, there were other people doing the same thing we were, and there were other people there by themselves also, to surf. So we didn't feel weird.

And we USED to hide on the inside a lot, but then we started doing things like going on the swings and stuff, and first we felt like everyone would be looking at us and thinking bad things, but then we just kept doing it and now we don't worry as much about what other people think and we just have fun. And it turns out people can kind of tell if you're having fun and then they're just happy you're having fun. But if YOU think what you're doing is weird, then they start to think that also. I didn't used to know that about how things worked.

But it's nice that you have a big amazing inside world. I guess everyone has to figure out what works best for them.

Bobby and other older Gang kids

I think it's sad when your body can't do what your mind wants it to do.

Our body is in pain quite a lot but I won't sit down for long because of all the things I wanna do.

Andrew is a boxer and he does jump rope all the time. He's really good at it and he can go really fast and it makes our calves hurt really bad sometimes and he likes punchbag too and he does it so much that our knuckles bleed and get bruised. And he didn't used to know that he would get hurt in real fights outside but I get that he always was protecting us but it made our body get hurt bad sometimes.

I like going out on the scooter and it's not fair because sometimes our 18 year old who does everything for us doesn't want me to do it. I still do it though and she doesn't tell me off. I can go shopping for her and it can get done more quicker.

But I think it's not fair sometimes that our body is hurting because of all of this.

I don't want my dad to come home. He's sick, but I don't like him. He always hugged and kissed sister and he never liked me. I want him to stay away from me. He loved his plants more than he loved me! Why should we take care of him!

Marcie