For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

Hi Susie,

We believe in spirits and souls too. Anna goes through occasionally and makes sure that they haven't taken up residence in our home.

I miss mama, but I have all my inside sisters to take care of me too. And Beth is a lot like mama was.

I feel better today. I hope everyone feels better today too.

Veronica.

I have a question and I don't know if this is the right place for it.

How do you get used to being in a big body?

Veronica

Ummm you don't totally.

The bigs say I run like an orangutan but that's only cos my arms are so long I'm worried I'm gonna trip over them. Like I know the body is big all over but for some reason the legs feel me sized and the arms feel too big so I worry maybe they got stretched and I will trip over them.

I also get upset when our bum is too big for the swings but the big bought me a basket swing for the garden that I fit in and you can ask bigs to get you a bigger version of your teddies so they still feel the right size when you hug them. I still have my old teddies on the shelf but I don't hug them cos they feel so tiny in this body I'm worried I will crush them so any new teddies the bigs get are always extra large so when I hug them it still feels the same as when the body was little.

-note from a big, we aren't that fat or lanky this is just how the littles size dysphoria makes them feel-

Thank you.

I walk funny and drop things all the time. Everything feels too small and I can't hold them right.

My Bigs are trying to figure things out, but so much is for them too. They want to make it ok. They say I have to be patient.

I have to go. Be well.
Veronica.

ViTheta wrote:I have a question and I don't know if this is the right place for it.

How do you get used to being in a big body?

Veronica

I pretend I giant sometimes when I play and sometimes I forget I big. I no like look in mirror, not me.

-Trea

We're still SO SO SO SO sad that we don't have our T anymore.

It doesn't feel anymore like someone died--we felt that way for weeks, and our tummy hurt a lot and felt weird and icky from being so sad. But now there's just a crying feeling underneath everything, and lots of mad feelings also.

And we have to keep stopping Watcher from texting him to say "I hate your guts," because that wouldn't really help anything, and we never want our T to write back anyway, because he wasn't sorry that he put someone else in our time without telling us or asking first. He literally said he didn't do anything wrong by doing that, and that it was "reasonable" to assume that we weren't coming even though we NEVER said that we weren't coming. And we had never not shown up without letting him know ahead of time. Ever.

All we have is the body T, and she puts her hand on the back of our neck, and that helps us feel like no one is going to hurt us, but it's not like talking to someone and looking at them and having them SEE us.

Bobby and Oliver and others.

Big hugs.

Eliseahorse wrote:Big hugs.

Thank you. That means a lot.

I'm so sorry you have to go through that. Missing people is hard. HUGS too. Please be better soon.

Today I talked to our T and told her about hurting my arm. And about grandfather hurting me for liking flowers. Boys don't draw flowers he told me. I couldn't tell him I'm a girl. I held my doll so I could feel strong and brave.

Be well everyone

Veronica

I want to meet litles proper. I want to go to the park an play an I don't care if other grown ups frown cos I would be playing with my friend.

I mis my granddad

I never got to show him all the cool knots I learned now ill never get to go on the boat wif him and the other boys.

Stupid girl body what's I got to live in
Stupid time making people old and crumbly and dying
Stupid stupid always having to share and hide

I just want to be me and make friends and have fun what its actual in the outdoors real life fun. I want to paddle boats and go play on the swing an actually talk wit my real voice not always hiding behind a big cause then they having the fun not me.

I wan boby and even and suzie and Leon to not just be words ona screen.