For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

Thank you - evie

Hi, i am really scared of the monsters they attack me and they grab me and i am really scared and the monsters also in inner world but noah and lou were sweet and tried to calm me but i got triggered out anyway. I try not to be scared cause big ones say their is no danger but it is really hard. I mis my mommy. - evie

Everything is BAD. That lady talked with us a lot about how the dad hurt us and how it was a big deal, and the other stuff he did, and now we feel icky about ALL hugs, even from the husband, and we don't know how to get BETTER from all of it. We can't see the T in his office until a long time from now, and we can't talk to him about icky things anyway because he doesn't really help us feel better from the feelings. He just makes us feel the feelings MORE and they're already TOO MUCH.

We might call another nice lady who knows how to help with body feelings, and calming down and stuff, but we're going on a trip first. Everything is just TOO MUCH and the husband got mad for not paying attention to him even though we WERE. He just means something else and we DON'T WANT TO DO any of that stuff!!!
(Sorry for yelling.)

Also, we wish there were more littles on here who are 7, 8, 9, and 10. We miss being able to talk to other kids like us.

HI.

So, Vi and Beth said I can talk here.

I'm Marci. I'm scared still. There's blood everywhere. The boys kept touching me. Yelling at me. Laughing at me. Then there's blood everywhere. My blood. I can't stop bleeding. The teachers won't help. They lock me in a room where I bleed and bleed and bleed. I try to stop the bleeding, but it's bad. All I can taste is blood.

Vi and Beth say I'm safe. I don't feel safe. Not yet.

Hello

I am Little Susie. They just call me Susie now inside because the older teen with same name grew up and decided to change her name to Yuna as she liked it so much!

I used to be 6 but sometimes I like to be 8 or 10 but never older.

Our 'bigs' said I could talk on here if I wanted to say how I felt cos our host body had a stroke and it was scary, lots of things changed inside.

I 'lost' my best friend and protector Phoenix because she got very injured by the stroke and was not the same anymore. ..but cos she is a changeling her tribe had a special way to make her better but she had to be reborn as a child changeling again so she can't remember all the years she was our protector.

My inside carers Jody and Sioux say we have to focus on the positives that Phoenix is happy again and she can transform again. Some older changelings joined with her and showed her memories of how she played Aslan and Disney characters for me and Bobby when we were little. She' s not quite the same but she looked after us all those years so now it's our turn to look after and help her.

And Bobby grew up too they are now an adult host called Lee and live out at the front. I miss them as a child too, we grew up together. but they are happier too cos they not so scared of everything..like every sudden noise or something.

I don't like the outside world anymore cos everything has changed so much, it changed our inside world too. It makes me feel very sad sometimes and I wish i didn't remember anything had changed!



Susie
(8 today..I can age-slide!)

The solicitor man is comin on Monday and I'm scared cos that meens I gotta to look at the bad stuff what happened and tell it again an I got to do it while pretendin wif the bigs voice cos if the court people hear my voice they will say we are crazy again and not listen cos bein 7 makes me "unreliable " even tho I was the one that was there not the bigs. I hate it!
I don't want to be tellin no more but if I don't tell the bad guys win.

Also we found out the irl kid didn't get taught about 9/12 and 7/7 so we showed them some videos and that got Elspeth upset cos she was front when they happened and our daddy was wokin in merica then and we didn't know where or where the trade towers was and if if it was close but we knew he flew lots of places so maybe he might bin there and we didn't find out for a long time like nearly a whole day and all the grown ups were to busy to tell us.

Hello Peter. This is Oliver. I hope things go well for you on Monday with all the court stuff.

Hi Oliver thanks I'm sorry the lady made you feel bad. That's poop an not fair. The bigs got to a lady what rubs special smelly stuff in your back an arm's maybe you can find somebody like or maybe your mr can do that to make touchin nice again?

I hate that people's disaperin I don't like it when my friends go away I missin them. Mr vonhiemhim is ok cos he is inside morwen now so he kinda still here but ofers have just gone gone. I miss Liam I mis Ian. What's the point of makin friends ifn everyone just runs away,?

Hi Peter,

We're better with hugs now. Thanks for caring about us.

I'm glad you're still here. There used to be a lot of other littles to talk to. I miss them a lot too and it's not fair that they just disappear.

I wish we had some kid friends in real life. We used to have a lot of them when our kids were little. Lots of kids would come over and play here. And we had lots of birthday parties. Things are so boring now with only grownups around.

Even our dog is old and can't play very much.

But we might get two kittens sometime. Maybe after a trip we're taking next month. I hope so, but the bigs think they'll be too much trouble so maybe they'll decide not to.

Bobby and Oliver