For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

Mr what is in charge please can I have the thingy what meens we can send a secret message to our friends ? I really worried bout my friend Leon Eli says I can give him our phone number what for we can WhatsApp but I not lowered to do it here I gotta to do it on the secret messag bit what for tho keep us safe. Please Mr what is in charge please give me the secret messages bit I really scared that my friend is a bad sort of poorly

Hello ! I understand you are worried about Leon and I hope everything is OK .

There is a period of time the new members have to wait before they can send a message to another person here . You are almost at the end of that time . If you write a few more times on the forum , you will be OK to send a message after that .

We do this for safety , so folks can't join the forum and send messages to people they don't know or post ads for things they are selling .

Thank you for understanding the rules about not putting personal information in your forum posts . I really appreciate that .

NSR

PS . I am a lady and you can call me New , if you want to .

Hi Peter!!! I gotten your message, I'm alright I just bin hiding thats why i did no answer for long time. I'm OK Sami keep everyone safe. I bin just sad.

LEON

Our little had a bit of a difficult time lately.

We had to protect her but it was quite tough for us all to be honest.

Someone broke through. He's not a bad person but he's out of bounds and she really really liked him so much that it caused a lot of disruption.

I don't know if I'm doing right or wrong sometimes in not letting her out.

I read what I put here last time and I said I would put when I am not doing good. So I am here, and I’m not doing good. I’m really sad. Trying not to do stuff to the body. But it’s not even because I’m strong, it’s just cuz the adults are stronger then I am so all I can do is think really hard about doing stuff but can’t actually do it.

I want to ask outside people for help but I don’t want to make them sad. I don’t want to burden them. It’s too much to ask others to help. They shouldn’t have to. I’m not asking for help here either. I just am saying I am sad. Somewhere where outside people see it. So that it feels like someone outside cares.

Should I text the t lady?? She will not reply for a while so it feels dumb to. If there’s no answer right now when I am hurting what good will her answering later do. I don’t know.

Thank you for having this place. We were talking about how to make me feel better and I thought about posting here all on my own. It helps a little bit.

- Pink

Hi Pink,

I'm sorry you're sad.

Sometimes it helps us to try to figure out why the sadness is there, because then that might help us think of ways to make it be less.

Other times it helps us to try to think of things that will make someone feel less sad.

We only text the T if we can stand to wait for him to write back. It could be right away or it could be tomorrow. So if it feels like it would help you just to tell your t lady that you're sad, then you could text her, but if it would make you feel worse because you would have to wait for her to write back, then it might not be a good idea.

I hope you feel better soon.

--Claire

I don't want to be a little. Right now I am a little. when I am inside I am a little. The bigs make me be a little cos our t said that's how we keep all the bad stuff away. It's alright for Peter he likes being a little and living on the inside and only comming out to play sometimes but I don't. The bigs let me out to do cooking because I am the best cook but still they see me as little and I stay a little but I want to be a big. Sometimes I front when there is no-one outside or inside looking and then I am a big. I can't talk when I am a big and that makes me sad but I am big and that makes me happy. Today I was front on my own and the bf came and we had a nice time we played piano and cuddled and he told me about some stuff that was making him sad that he couldn't tell the other bigs. He noticed that I was like a big and asked me how old I was and I shrugged because I don't know. He said sometimes when we text I talk like a big but most times I'm like a little.

It was really fun being a big I want to be a big but when I went inside it was horrid all the bad stuff was waiting so now I am little again. And the bigs don't want me being big again.

Can I be big outside and little inside?

Eli

Hi it's me Leon!

Im sad becouse I wented to play in my own inner place that I made myself long time ago. I liken it a lot. I made it all myself. There was nothing and I make my own world there like I wanted it. Noone see it but me. I dont know how to make it like other can see.

Inside it was black and empty before, but I can look carefull and then I see. I can see trouh wals. They almost invisible but then I started seeing them and then I can not no-see them. Its rooms that have boys inside. Not littles boys like me or big boys, but boys bigger than me. Like Elias and Oliver and another one like Oliver, there's many. They all alone in rooms and scared or sad or being empty inside heart and tummy and it's sad. And I'm sad.

And then I bilded my own place there and made trees grow and I have lots of forest trees and an apple tree that has apples fallen out. I dont eat them, I dont eat in inside place, its to go to have adventure. And I look at the ground. I have my wellies and raincoat on, they're yellow. Its autumn in there, I like it becouse it smels good, like apples. And theres mushroms, lot of big red mushroms with white dots. Some of apples are all brown they went no-no eat food, but i like stepping on them with my wellies. They go splurts! Its not raining, but its bit of raining, little rains that stay in air, not fall down. Its my own little forest I go around and find things and I can splish splash in where's wet and jump and wated goes splash!

And I went there today to have an adventure, but it was all quiet then i listened and looked around in air too carefull and I could see the rooms and boys in them again almost invisible like ghosts and now I'm sad.

I never look around in air, I look the ground and find there things, because it's my secret own forest for adventure. But then i looked up an I see them again. They're almost invisible and I dont wanna see them there scared and sad.

I wanna make it a Peter Pan land for all lost boys, but they dont see me, they see just their room and are all alone locked inside them. They never come outside and if they know how to come they cant see my forest becouse I dont know how to make it like others can see. It just mine but it not feeling happy anymore. My trees grow in their rooms. It's scary.

LEON

Hi Leon that's so cool that you can grow trees. Maybe you can ask Sammi or your dad to help you open the see thru walls and tell the lost boys about the trees so they can see them too. When I needin help with inside stuff I ask Crystopfer he's a big so he can do stuff but he can't make trees like you.
Peter

***trigger warning*** medical stuff, surgery



Hi this is Claire, and we're all really scared about getting our feet cut into next week, and the doctor said lots of scary things about everything that could go wrong and he acted like we wouldn't be careful and we would do everything wrong and mess it all up, but that's NOT TRUE because we're really careful, especially Nadia, and we already worry about everything that could go wrong, and it's ok to tell us in a list because they HAVE TO, but he didn't need to try to scare us EXTRA and say that rare things might happen to us because we would try to move our toes too much and mess up the stitches.

Because we're CAREFUL, but it's really important to move our toes a little bit at a time otherwise they'll get stiff and ruin the WHOLE POINT of the surgery!!

Anyway, it's not fair because we're already scared about it, so he didn't need to scare us MORE.

Claire and others