For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

TW dysphoria


I was gonna put this in the other littles thread cos I not feelin sad but Mo said willies is not somfin what for to talk about in the other thread cos it might upset someone what dont like them.


I in a lady skin an the lady skin bin havin a realy reaalllly long yeachy time an grace ladys boobies gettin bigger cos she eatin more an Mo tryin to keep us skiny in the gym but it not workin an I dont like lookin at the boobies they not mine I wish they just shrink away but they dont.
Grace lady asked if I would like a willy what I can put on when I puttin on my wig an I wasnt sure how she was gonna do that but I said yes cos I miss havin a willy when I on the outside it just fealin stange havin a gap where my willy should be.

The willy came in the post an there was a strap but when I putted it on it was pointin the wrong way all pointin out like how you hold it when you goin for a pee. I couldnt even do my trousers up. Agripan laughed at me an grace lady was all embarised an Mo went an put the willy on a high shelf where noone could see it. That was last week before Mo an agripan had their big fight.

Today I had a lot of time out an I wanted to wear my willy it lookin like a proper one an it fealin like a proper one but the stupid strap pointin it all wrong. Then I had an Idea. I am good at stichin. I got some pants what not bin worn yet an still in the packet so they all clean an I cut a hole in them an poked the willy through so it pointin DOWN an stiched it all together. Now when I put the willy on it in the propeer place.

Cos the willy not allowed in the washin mascheen I got to wear 3 pants! a pair of gracelady pants what for keepin everythin cleen then my willy pants an then some boxers to cover up my willy cos it would be rude ifn I just had my willy danglin in my trousers with no boxers coverin it up.
I goted it on now an I can feel it an it feal good to not have a gap no more.

TW ends

Peter (Mo added the TW)

Peter typed this in our journey thread but I thought it would be better here - Mo

I fed up of outside bigs telling me I not needed. That all I do is play.

I DONT

If i wasnt here we be in a mess right now.

I do the cleanin an the washin of clothes an the hovrin I even learnin how to cook. I gettin our outside girl to school an I was the one what remembered that she was comin home on the school bus cos of a feild trip an went an fetched her from the bus stop.

ME I do all those things.

I doin them cos I want to be useful an I the man of the house an gracelady no good no more cos she always cryin or worryin or fealin all guilty about us runnin away which is stupid cos it was a GOOD fing to run away cos Mo's mister was a bad man an if he had a sad christmas it serves him right. He shouldnt have been hitin us an spitin on us an kickin us an stranglin us.

But outside bigs just say peter only 7 what use is he. Gracelady only 30 she NO USE at all but when she all sad an not doin nofin she never gets told off. If I playin when the social work lady comes she jus gives me a scowl an I show her all the stuff I done all ready. I playin cos I EARNT my play time. But that not good enough I could have got all the housework done an it still not good enough.

Poo to outside bigs.

The only thing I can't do what a grown up needin to do is bathin the outside girl (cos that would be rude) an shopin cos I not good at addin up stuff.

I finkin maybe I should get a job for pushin trollys. just me I get it as peter an not let gracelady or mo help me an then I ask the shop what give me a job to write a letter to all the bigs what say I no good tellin them how usefull I am an how hard I work an that they not allowed to say I should go back to my magic sleep.

It gracelady what need to go for a magic sleep. She the one that is no use. Cept when outside girl is cryin then she needin gracelady. so I not goin to tell gracelady to go to sleep cos that job is REALLY important.

Peter

Hi Peter, I'm Meredith!!

I'm glad you got a willy. Did you know that here in the U.S. it isn't called a willy? Willy can be a name for someone here, like short for William, and they made a movie one time about a whale named Willy, who I guess was kept in a Sea World kind of place or something (I don't know because I didn't see it). But they named the movie "Free Willy," and I think everyone in your country laughed about it.

And I wanted to say also about the bigs not thinking you're important. Me and Nadia aren't very big--she's like 9, and I'm like maybe 12? Idk exactly. But me and her were mostly in charge of the outside kids, so that was a lot of the time when they were little, and I go to the singing and dancing classes now (Sasha helps me when we have to act more grownup), and Nadia used to do most of the driving, and we're VERY IMPORTANT, and so are you. It sounds like you do a lot of important stuff!! I hope they start to appreciate you more.

From ME--MEREDITH!!

Hi Meradith

I remember you from the other litle place.

i watched that one I liked it when willy jumped over the big fence thing an was free. most times boys what are called william here are called billy or billy bob or silly billy or billy bum but sometimes they are called will they only called willy if they bin naughty. Like fanny. Fanny is a rude word for girls bits so whena girl bein naughty she called a fanny adams.

But willy not always bin a naughty boy name i think cos we have a ryhme wat goes "wee willy winky runs through the town upstars and downstare in his nightgown rappin at the window cryin at the locks are all the children in their beds its past 6 o clock."

If a bully lickss their figer an puts it in your ear that called a wet willy. I dont know why but it is GROSS

That is so cool that nadia learnt to drive a car even tho she only 9.

If you not calin it a willy what you callin it?

**Trigger Warning, placed by system adults: fear, getting in trouble, new job**

writing with help from one of the adults, mostly because its hard to stay front by myself long

adults got us a job and we're being asked to make decisions about stuff before we even go and i'm afraid we're going to get in trouble

i'm afraid we're going to get in trouble when we start but also because they're asking us to do stuff now i'm afraid we'll get in trouble before we even get there

and the adults keep saying we won't and that it's okay to make mistakes and to not know things but i know we're going to get in trouble because we can't do the things in the job. we don't even really know what the job is!! because they won't tell us when we ask!

the adults say we'll figure it out but what if we freeze up and dissociate and can't learn, can't think

-the one who hides

Hi one who hides

Did you find out bout the job yet?

Hope you did good. It not nice when you dont think you no good. an it not fair when bigs dont explain things propper.

Peter

TheGangsAllHere wrote:Hello MD Kids. This is Oliver. You could have a dog because your T or your doctor could say you need to have one, and then they have to let you! Lots of people do that. Then you can even bring them to work with you if you want.

Hi Oliver. Thank you. But animals are against the Co-Op Rules even the kind you talked about. We don't want to get the Co-Op people mad cuz we don't want them to make us pay a fine or have us move.

And besides there is too much messy stuff in our head. Like our bigger people say that is why we do not have an SO person or outside kids cuz we don't want to mess them up. Same with a dog. But we will volunteer at a shelter someday when the messy stuff in our head gets smaller.

MD Kids

I HATE gracelady. She was reeellllyy meen to doctor doug she said all the stuff we bin doin an all the nice fings he bin sayin about us dont matter cos she not better cos she still missin time an that a LIE co the time not missin me an mo an elspeth we writin down an drawin what we bin doin when grace lady not here. Gracelady bin not lookin at the book in not our fault it her fault it NOT doctor doug fault she to lazy to look ina book it NOT doctor doug fault. he had been lookin so happy when he tellin us we not poorly no more an then gracelady said she too poorly to be workina n he looked all sad cos she said he not helpin her an it LIES doctor doug helpin us LOTS an we not too poorly to work. I wanna work an mo wanna work an we bin lookin at LOTS of stuff we can do together like librarian or childminder or lifeguard or fireman or teacher even fetchin trollies what run away or lookin after animals what are in the pound or makin boxes ina factory. there loads of stuff what we could share the job an we all gettin a turn.

An gracelady just big an meen she bein big an meen an nasty to doctor doug cos when she asked him to make me do trauma work doctor doug said no. You cant make people look at bad stuff if they dont want to an doctor doug was a good doctor what for sayin no an lookin after me like that. Gracelady shouldna made doctor doug feel like a bad doctor jsut cos she not in charge anymore.

If she be meen to doctor doug again I gonna lock her up ina box.

I can you know I can make a box an lock her up I wanted to lok her up when we left Mos mister cos all she did was cry an fink about the mister an make everybody up set but i didnt lock her up cos doctor doug says we got to share an help each other but if she nasty like that again i lockin her up an not lettin her out.

I sent doctor doug an email what for to tell him that i fink gracelady is meen an he a good doctor an he not to be sad. but now i worried cos you not ment to email doctors it against the rule an i dont want doctor doug gettin in trouble. An i not gonna see him for nother 2 weeks an that be the last time an i not knowin ifn he gettin into trouble all that time an i really worried cos he a good doctor an it all gracelady fault bein meen cos she not gettin her own way.

I HATE gracelady

Hi peter. We're sorry you are mad. Can you talk to Doctor Doug the next time you see him? Or maybe write him a letter on paper and give it to him the next time you see him?

We hope that things get better for you.

MD Kids

MakersDozn wrote:Hi Oliver. Thank you. But animals are against the Co-Op Rules even the kind you talked about. We don't want to get the Co-Op people mad cuz we don't want them to make us pay a fine or have us move.

MD Kids

Hello MD Kids. This is Oliver. You might have other reasons why you don't want to get a dog. That's ok. If it was just us and no one else, I don't know if we could take care of a dog. But co-ops in New York State have to let you if your T or doctor say you need one. We found this: https://esadoctors.com/new-york-co-op-e ... rt-animal/
They can't make you pay a fine or move.