For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

Hi Mandy,

That sounds very scary. I hope you can find a nice T who understands DID and can help all of you get along better.

Hi Melissa,

That's mean to do all that stuff and not even talk to you about it or make a plan with you. Gum with sugar is bad for your teeth, but it has hardly any calories. I know about that stuff because I help Sasha count calories. And if your mouth is busy chewing gum, you don't want to eat as much. Maybe you could make a deal with her that you get to chew gum that you like sometimes, as a special treat? It doesn't work well for us if we don't get to have ANY treats. That's being mean to you.

Also everyone should decide about your hair. No one person should get to decide big things like that. I'm sorry that happened. We have times when someone does something and they didn't realize someone else would be upset. Because we're not very good at listening to each other yet. I hope you and big V can talk more and decide things together.

Nadia

Thankyou MD kids and Mandy and Nadia.

We looked on the packages and theres lotsa sugar in my gum and thats why she says its bad. She asys its like chewy candy not gum. And cos I dont just eat one or two pieces, I eat one or two at a time till the whole package is gone.

She says were not supposed to have sugar and thats why she threw everything out.

She says we will look for other gum that I like but isnt so much sugar. And she said sorry for cutting the hair but I still hate her!

Thankyou for being nice to me. Im sorry Im so sad today.

Melissa

Hi Mellisa

Have you tried liquorish or iris root? They look like shrivelled sticks you cut off peices and chew them. They are naturaly sweet with very low amounts of sugar super chewy too. Just don't have more than 2 inches of liquorish root per 9 stone body weight or it acts as a laxitive!

Also you might want to tell her that a number of sweeteners have been linked to liver and kidney disease when used regularly. So it's up to her but personally I'd take a few extra inches on my waist over a dialysis machine any day.

Grace (on behalf of peter - because he wanted to go into WAY too much detail about the laxative effects of raw liquorish!)

I am PETER

I AM a BOY

I dont wanna live in a girl skin. NOT FAIR.

If we lived in a boy skin we wouldnt have icky drippy girly stuff.

We would get to climb trees an ride motorbikes an swim in the sea an no one would push us arround cos we'd eat our spininch and be like popeye.

Girls cant be like popeye

Girls get pushed around.

I fed up with hidin

I wanna talk to people REAL people ones you can touch

When I see some one I wanna smile and wave and tell them my new cool fact

but I cant I have to hide.

NOT FAIR

When I was in my magic sleap I didnt see or feal or hear anything. Now I hear fun things an I wake up an theres fun stuff or cool stuff or people to talk to an I have to hide cos I "innapropriate".

I in a mirror cage I see people but they not allowed to see me

NOT FAIR

NO MORE HIDIN

wish Id never woken up

Hi to peter. I am sorry you are sad. We don't get the girl stuff anymore cuz the body is older. I used to hide inside when the girl stuff came.

And maybe you can talk to your T about how you feel. With you talking. So he hears your words.

We hope you feel better soon.

Joseph who's 8 and a half
and other kids

Hi Peter. This is MEREDITH!!!

Girls can absolutely climb trees and ride motorbikes and swim in the sea and be strong. We climb trees and swim in the sea. And we don't let people push us around because we can use words that are strong.

But that doesn't matter, because you're a boy. Maybe you can make sure that Mo gives you time to be out and not hide, in places where it's ok. Isn't there an outside girl there who will play with you and read to you? You're lucky, because our outside kids all grew up, so we don't have kids to play with here at our house. You can't be out all the time, because everyone needs to take turns, but when you're out, maybe you can dress how you want and ignore all the girl stuff on the outside of the body.

Hi Peter. This is Bobby. I'm a boy in a girl body. To help take care of me we almost never wear skirts or dresses, just comfy things like jeans and leggings. When I'm out, I try not to think about the girl body and I just do stuff I like to do. I'm a little older than you, so when I'm out, people just think we're kind of acting young, but they're usually nice. I don't want to mess anything up for us, so I'm careful, but sometimes I get upset and want more time, and then EVENTUALLY they listen to me and do something that I want to do. I hope you guys can work it out so you have more time do to what you like.

My T is always happy to see me, and he likes the toys I bring. I gave him some of my magnets, and he has them stuck to his lamp. I don't have to hide there at all. Except last time we saw him he was feeling too many big feelings about us and I didn't like that so I wanted to run away. It made me feel like an alien or a robot and I didn't like that. But I told him in a text and we're waiting for him to write back about it.

Hi every body

I dint know girls were lowed to do those things. Where my daddy lives being a girl is a bad thing but I dont live there no more so maby we be alowed to do stuff even tho we in a girl????

You sound cool meradith.

Grace lady an elspeth like dresses an we not good at sharin yet so I just wake up an then I cant get back to sleep so I have to be quiet an pretend I not here till Mo or grace lady come an then it another day an I missed my playtime, or I wake up an the outside girl gone to bed all ready an I not seen her AGAIN. If Mo is out bfor me she weres trousers an there are trousers in my backpack but grace lady embarised an forgetful so my back pack not always there an sometimes there no place to change.

The Outside girl is nice she gonna teach me to read an write so mo dont have to do the typin no more an I can write in our diary so mo not have to guess at my pictures no more. I like drawin pictures but sometimes stuff is to big for a picture. We played trains yesterday an today I woke up an we were eatin dinner so we got to have a bedtime story too.

I know I got to share but nearly all time is grown up stuff

why can't I wake up when it playtime and not grownup time?

Trigger warning: death wish, for whole post.

I come from another thread. They say there's a party for thinking people who died but no one remember.

I wanna be that. I wanna be dead that no one remember then someone party and lights a candle for me.

I wanna not wake up and wanna be dead and lie down. I want it a lot and it makes me cry I lie down in dark and close eyes and think it can be true

It's not true,im here and no candle for me

I dont know who am I. I'm Jules but not him. Some of us had names but we forgot them.

Hi to the person who is Jules but not him. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Sometimes it helps to tell someone how you feel, like when you write it on here, or you tell a real person, like your T. But sometimes it doesn't help. Anyway, I'm sorry and I hope there's a way for things to not hurt so much without being dead.

Nadia

Floralie wrote:Trigger warning: death wish, for whole post.

I wanna be that. I wanna be dead that no one remember then someone party and lights a candle for me.

It's not true,im here and no candle for me

I Sorry I make you wanna be dead.

You dont need to be dead to have a party.

I light candle for you anyway xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Dont die PLEASE

We got a party day for the forgotten poorly too it tomorrow (10th) we not done it before but Mo says we can party for all our friends on here if they wanna us to.

Maybe you could join in to? Then you wont feel so sad? We gonna light candles an sing songs an play fun games. An we have to stand on buckets or other tall stuff when we eat like Catherine the Astonashing she want to go to heven so bad she lived in a tree! An we make little presents like secret santa an we dont put our names on an we put them through peoples letter boxes. I gonna make pasta animal braclets for all my friends here. An Mo can put the pictures up an then you can wear them an feal not forgotten cos you special.

Peter


Please dont google Cathering the Astonashing the internet only has the grown up version of her story and its got some nasty bits in it because people wern't nice nice to poorly in the head (mental health) people back then. If you would like to know about her I can type up the kids version we have in the little book of saints here. This is the one that is good for kids to read and what peter and our outside girl knows.

Mo

I'm sorry One who is not Jules for upsetting you. You don't need to die to have a candle or a party. There are people here who love you and value you.

Grace