by Sarandipity » Wed Sep 25, 2019 12:30 pm
Hi guys,
I have 2 problems:
1. I don't like the other me's being with MY bf.
2. The tiny parts that are stuck in horrible stuff. They're kids like me but not like me. It's horrible. I seen them. There's more. Loads more. The others won't pull them out of the pit because the brain won't cope. I think that's unfair. They are weird or whatever but they shouldn't be in the pit, left there and alone. I can't help them. Even the ones out of the pit I can't help but it's better they're out of the pit. Paul writes what they show him and the twins put them in an orphanage type place where they want to help them. There's a dog girl. She's the weirdest. The twins have her sit normally now and sip out a bowl like a human so she won't be a weird dog person if she ever gets to be in the body again. The other tiny parts they talk to and try to help them like that. But there's loads in the pit still. An other me counted them and they got up to 84. They not people like me, they are pieces of people and they are stuck. If I was a piece of a person I would rather be in the orphanage than the pit but they can't just go there because to come out the pit Paul has to see what piece they are. Anyway I don't like it. I feel sad for them. Beth wants them to stay in the pit forever because it's too horrible. Stupid Karen is 8, older than me but useless like me now because she's 8.
I was upset because I'm useless but others said I can colour in and that's good.
Do any of you feel useless ever? Like you're stupid and can't do anything useful. They won't even let me help with the kid tiny pieces of people. I wanted to, because I'm a kid, I can help. But the twins said no. And they won't let the others look after them because the twins say the others will tell them nonsense and make them think they're just internal parts and try to bring them up. The twins want them to know just the truth, what happened to them, nothing more and then really slowly try to integrate them into actual alters. The others don't like the idea. They might just smudge them with me - that's scary. I don't want to be weird like them. Karen is a kid now they can smudge them with her. Or make Beth have them.
Bye, Mandy (twins helped - a tiny bit. Not much)
Also I'm angry with the twins. Since the tiny parts came out they don't look after me and they don't make sure I get stuff and they don't let me help and they just leave me. It's not nice. I don't like Rose, she's stupid, I don't want to stay with her or any of them. I didn't mind Karen but now she's a stupid kid too. If they keep being rubbish to me I'm going to live with the overlord.
Monte Carlo or Bust
Rose and Patrick
Batcho and Fortune (twins), Paul and Lilly,
No-one and Peter, Beth and Karen, Mandy and Mouse plus a seperate system of fragments including: rabit and others.