For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

Thank you, Evan. You're a really good friend.

Nadia

Hi guys,

I have 2 problems:

1. I don't like the other me's being with MY bf.
2. The tiny parts that are stuck in horrible stuff. They're kids like me but not like me. It's horrible. I seen them. There's more. Loads more. The others won't pull them out of the pit because the brain won't cope. I think that's unfair. They are weird or whatever but they shouldn't be in the pit, left there and alone. I can't help them. Even the ones out of the pit I can't help but it's better they're out of the pit. Paul writes what they show him and the twins put them in an orphanage type place where they want to help them. There's a dog girl. She's the weirdest. The twins have her sit normally now and sip out a bowl like a human so she won't be a weird dog person if she ever gets to be in the body again. The other tiny parts they talk to and try to help them like that. But there's loads in the pit still. An other me counted them and they got up to 84. They not people like me, they are pieces of people and they are stuck. If I was a piece of a person I would rather be in the orphanage than the pit but they can't just go there because to come out the pit Paul has to see what piece they are. Anyway I don't like it. I feel sad for them. Beth wants them to stay in the pit forever because it's too horrible. Stupid Karen is 8, older than me but useless like me now because she's 8.

I was upset because I'm useless but others said I can colour in and that's good.

Do any of you feel useless ever? Like you're stupid and can't do anything useful. They won't even let me help with the kid tiny pieces of people. I wanted to, because I'm a kid, I can help. But the twins said no. And they won't let the others look after them because the twins say the others will tell them nonsense and make them think they're just internal parts and try to bring them up. The twins want them to know just the truth, what happened to them, nothing more and then really slowly try to integrate them into actual alters. The others don't like the idea. They might just smudge them with me - that's scary. I don't want to be weird like them. Karen is a kid now they can smudge them with her. Or make Beth have them.

Bye, Mandy (twins helped - a tiny bit. Not much)

Also I'm angry with the twins. Since the tiny parts came out they don't look after me and they don't make sure I get stuff and they don't let me help and they just leave me. It's not nice. I don't like Rose, she's stupid, I don't want to stay with her or any of them. I didn't mind Karen but now she's a stupid kid too. If they keep being rubbish to me I'm going to live with the overlord.

Hi Mandy,

I'm sorry things are so hard. I don't exactly feel useless, but I feel like a lot of what I do is wrong and messes things up. But I am good at taking care of babies and toddlers, so I help with that. When we needed to rescue them from the pit, we sent only happy and strong people to do that. It didn't matter how old they were. Meredith led the rescue mission and she kind of slides from maybe 9 to 16.

Nadia

Thanks Gang. Only strong parts can be involved with the pit parts. That's Paul but then even Paul couldn't take anymore. And then the twins just take them. I know they're looking after them, they looked after me and I think I'm ok so they will be good to them.

Also I found out Beth was using my Mouse. Mouse is an alter. She's mine. I don't know why Beth thinks it's ok to use my Mouse. That annoyed me. The others say I'm a spoilt brat because of the twins. Which I probably am but it's still not nice to take someone's Mouse. Mouse is mine. They probably want to use Mouse for other stuff, like with these kids out of the pit but they can't because Mouse is mine and now I can't find her. That is irritating me.

Thanks again Gang. Your people sound nice. Mine are ok but yours sound nicer.

Hi mandy

We dont have an inside except for the coal bunker. I used to be in the coal bunker but then doctor doug woke me up. Theres a little girl trapped in the coal bunker. Im too small to open the lid without standing on my tippy toes and I am scared to fall in. Some times I can hear her crying. I guess she can hear me too. Sometimes I sit next to the little door at the bottem. I darent open it because then the coal might fall out an trap me and it is to small for a person anyway. but the walls are thinner near the door and I sing songs and I think the girl can hear the singing even if she cant hear the words proper cos of all the coal.

Maybe you can sit next to the pit and sing for the peices of people?

peter

That's nice that you do that, Peter. I hope someone will help you open the lid so you guys can take care of her.

Mandy, we're not very nice to each other. A lot. But people still try to get along so that stuff in the outside life doesn't get messed up. Like, no one wants to mess up work, or classes, or having our house, or having the husband around. Even though some people hate some of that stuff and hate our life right now. They're just more scared that things would get worse if we messed up something that we have now. One time our T called us "a very cooperative system," and said that some people have a "civil war" going on inside. That sounds scary.

Nadia

TheGangsAllHere wrote:Mandy, we're not very nice to each other. A lot. But people still try to get along so that stuff in the outside life doesn't get messed up. Like, no one wants to mess up work, or classes, or having our house, or having the husband around. Even though some people hate some of that stuff and hate our life right now. They're just more scared that things would get worse if we messed up something that we have now. One time our T called us "a very cooperative system," and said that some people have a "civil war" going on inside. That sounds scary.

Nadia

Hi Nadia,

That sounds a lot like our people. Except the husband part cuz our bigger people don't have one.

Your people have a civil war? Or was your T talking about people in other bodies? Some of our people don't get along.

MD Kids

Hi MD Kids,

The T was talking about other systems who have battles that go on inside. We have, like, arguments, but not any wars that I know about.

Nadia

Yesterday I drew a picture for our T and she looked at it and I cried because I got really really scared. I didn't want her to see the picture but I kind of wanted her to so I showed it to her. She was nice. She let me pick a pretty rock. I like the rock. I'm sorry I am so messed up.

Evan

Hi Evan,

You are super brave. I cried yesterday when we showed some writing to the T because I was really really scared. I'm glad we both have nice Ts. And I'm glad you got to pick a pretty rock. I'm sorry that people did bad things to you a long time ago. Nothing about it is your fault.

Nadia