For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

So we had a nightmare last night involving our hosts parents and sister. She was being eaten alive by them and woke up us. She has her stuffed animals to comfort me and the other little's. Shes like very happy to be around us and that's why I wanted to be there for her. Course she still doubts we exist and thinks its all made up. But its not we are real. Were doing our best to support her and her boyfriend is very helpful in that regard. Her family is very accepting of her condition and her mom is especially close to her. Her dad has his up and downs but hes still all for her in the end. She was born to two loving parents and shes grateful for that. Anyway I think were going to be online for awhile so if anyone wants to talk privately our inbox is open. - Ysabelle

Thanks nadia for your post. That's how we feel but didn't think of it that way. After kids grew up we got dogs to take care of and hold. Now we don't have our own. We told T we wanted to move away again. Couldn't explain why. Now we can tell. We don't like people see us..not our kids or dogs. Don't like they see us. Thanks nadia for helping us understand.
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I miss my toys
the toys we had when the bigs were little with me
i had ponies and barbies and a smurf table and dolls the kind of baby dolls that eyes went closed and a baby named jessica

now theyre all gone and cant get them back again and i miss my mommy cause her dont no me no mores only knows the one big and no knows nobdy else heres

and i dont want the bigs to go on vaycayshuns next month and i dont like bad dreams

it was really scary last night. The big bad guy came into my room and started to assault me. He was being very mean and wouldn't let our host do anything to help. He kept finding ways around things and kept trying to "bend da rules'" as Justin and the others put it. She was very upset when she went to go protect us. We tried to comfort her by watching my little ponies but she ended up rejecting us. Instead she put a big lock on our door and made sure he didn't hurt anyone else. She went to her room and locked herself in there for a good hour until he started to knock on everyone's doors. She was trying to push everyone away. She got so mad that she pushed him out into the hall. I heard from the others that she kicked his butt and decided to get him a new place to stay. Hes a big meanie butt. I dont like him. He tries to hurt everyone and its very maddening. He no like me he tries to touch me in my no no place.

ItsJustUs wrote:I miss my toys
the toys we had when the bigs were little with me
i had ponies and barbies and a smurf table and dolls the kind of baby dolls that eyes went closed and a baby named jessica

now theyre all gone and cant get them back again and i miss my mommy cause her dont no me no mores only knows the one big and no knows nobdy else heres

and i dont want the bigs to go on vaycayshuns next month and i dont like bad dreams

I miss my toys too especially My Little Pony. You know what? Adults buy toys and they call them collector's items. I found this great website about My Little Pony. I just like the pictures and I used to have Blossom (CF). I had to look up what CF means. I'm thinking about getting one that's not in the package just because I like her.

http://mylittlewiki.org/wiki/Collectors_Pose

They say I can write in here and then it's be like secret.

I don't know what to say. It's weird, I feel weird. They say in here it's other kids who have weird in head too. I have sometimes other people in my head.

I need to go sleeping but I don't want to. I can take a pill for sleep if I wanna.

I like clocks that makes noise when it's silent. It sounds safe.

My name is Jules, I'm 11. I'm a boy. I have bruises in my legs. I look at them and feel I am and am not at the same time.

I can open the door and leave and go outside but I dont knw where I go so I stay in here. It's rainy outside and fresh air.

I don't lke it when all is weird and I forget who I am.

Hi Jules,

I'm glad you wrote to us. It's ok to write and there are friends for you here. We all have other people in our heads. They can be friends too. I'm sorry you have bruises on your legs. I hope they don't hurt too bad.

We have a rule inside that if we don't know where we're going we should stay where we are. That's just what we do. Sounds like it's what you do too.

Evan

Hi Jules,

This is a good place to talk because we all have other people in our head and also it's really hard to be in a grownup body when you're a kid.

We're on a trip and I want to swim in the pool with the other kids, but even if we go there, I can't play with them. But we're here with an outside grownup, and if we're just with him we can sometimes feel like we're really a kid. But not for very long, because he would rather be with the grownup parts even if he says he likes all of us.

Nadia

Nada and all,
This is a good place to talk. It is super secret. Big ones don't always understand


Hi all,
We don't know what's going on. We all feel sad and a little scared not just little ones. Big ones too. More scared cuz nobody knows what to do why all are sad. Asked why so maybe I could paint picture and make them feel better. Not super scared so protectors come. Just very sad and little scared. Thought maybe we do something to make us unsad like to go the river. Nobody wants to leave house or go play. Say they too scared. Hope big person comes fix this. Think all big ones are very sad too.
~Puddy

Hi Nadia,

I hope you have a great time. Maybe you could swim with the kids for just a little bit. Sometimes I see some kids and want to make friends only we don't look like a kid anymore and Host says I'll scare them if I try. I don't want to scare anybody.

Hi Puddy,

I'm sorry you're sad. It's hard to be sad and scared. I'm sad and scared a lot. I hope a good adult shows up soon to take care of you. Got some stuffies? That helps.

Evan