For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

Thank you for asking Jen to look out for me, she made sure I had a call with Lex and I feel much better <3 did some colouring over skype and Lex helped me feel brave. M'still scared though. Thank you for being friends here. Echo.

Hi Echo,

We're really glad Jen helped you and that you talked to Lex and that you got to color. We are glad to be your friends and our bigger people are glad to be Jen's friends.

MD Kids

Thank you, friends are the best. I'm scared on the ward though. It's loud and there are lots of people. Jen and Vivian are trying really hard but people sometimes shout and throw things and are mean and it scares me. I want to go home. Echo.

We little ones have question we're afraid to ask T or outside or inside big ones. T said if we hurt body people won't like us. If we have to go to hospital, they will not like what we did. We make little cuts or bruises cuz we don't want that. T doesn't want us to either. But it really does help. We see big ones outside get drunk or use drugs or drive car fast or lot of stuff even bader then we do. Some eat food with sugar they not suppose to. Smoke those smelly things. But outsiders don't not like them. What we do not real bad like them. Little cuts, little bruises not seem so bad. Is it?

Hi KingleyHere's littles,

I can tell you what bigger ones or our T would say. It's not about calling something good or bad, and it's not about not doing something just because doing something would make people not like you.

The little cuts and bruises are helping with something--you said it really does help you. The thing is to try to find something that helps that doesn't also hurt the body. All those other things hurt the body also--like drinking and drugs and stuff. It's not like one thing is badder than another thing, and I don't think it matters to think that outsiders think drinking is more ok than little cuts or bruises.

Nadia wants to hurt the body when we have a feeling inside that she can't stand, so we try to find other things that help with that feeling, and that don't hurt us.

But you're not bad for wanting to do that, and I bet your T would want to hear your question and talk about it with you. It's important for your T and bigger ones to know how you're feeling.

Jaden (and some others helping)

Jaden,
that makes more sense than big people talking. Uhuh, something that helps but not hurt body. Gee, I don't know anything like that. Maybe others can think of something. We watch outside people & see what they do. Maybe we can ask T like you said it. We like T, he helps but he likes big words. Thank you, Jaden. We will see what we can find.

I'm really really really worried about something we have to do tonight. It's a lot of things that each one by itself would be really hard and scary for us to do, and we have to do ALL OF THEM. I'm not even the one who should be out for any of it, but I can't help it because I'm so worried. It's for Meredith, Sasha, and NoName to do, as a team, but there are so many things that could go really wrong and I don't want people to see ME because I won't be able to BE confident and feel like we look good, and stuff, and that's how we need to be. But I can't stay out of the way when I'm so worried. I hate this. Me being out is going to MAKE it all go wrong.

Nadia

I hate the mother. she is a horrible person. very horrible and I hate that she is alive.
she will come to our home again soon. and I hate it.

I'm really really sad
because there is no big person to listen and hug and so it is safe
i'm soooooooo sad about leaving the T lady
she LIKED me
and the new old T lady is very scary and i'm not allowed to write to her
because she's scary and i don't know her and she didn't write back to the bigs from a while ago and when lucas was sad she also didnt write back so maybe sad messages not allowed

i just want all to be okay and safe
because summer is coming and summer is the worst for us
the body gets shaky and no sleep at night
so we had to take medicine and it helps
but cannot take medicine all the time
Very scared to be alone in summer

It's because past
Not now?
Maybe not now? But cannot know

In past always vacation and no way out and no other people than my mummy or daddy and stepmummy and brothers and sisters
Always miss someone and new rules and angry and scared
and i always WRONG
wanting too much food or too much water or too much hurt by sun
or too much questions and should SHUT UPP
or too much song
have to hold on
No birthday
because forgotten and not important and want too much
Sometimes all alone with brothers and sisters
have to find own food
Very hungry
But when found parents someone was nice to us
Said we could have hot chocolate
And then parents say NOOO

No.
Even when very hungry.
All alone

I dont want summer and i want safe.

from Robin and Mae

Hi Jaden,
I'm one of Puddy's older ones. Didn't know he had written that here...accidentally came across it. Wanted to thank you for what you said. Some of our little ones get confused about how to operate in a world of older people. We also forget how to be age appropriate & patient with them. Think he followed your sage advise. Hope you find this. Appreciate your help.
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