For littles to talk about difficult topics (Trigger Warning)

It's me, adult Floralie. Thank you Nadia, Peter and Grace for being nice to our boy who is like Jules but not him. It's not your fault he feels the way he does, he always does. He doesn't wanna party or play or do things, he finds death comforting, that's why he hopes for it. He feels he's safe when he's dead.

He doesn't come out a lot, that's why I answer for him to you, so you don't think it was your fault. It's not at all. He came out because he heard about the party and liked it, but the party is not the reason why he wants to die. We don't know why he wants that, other than feeling it makes him safe, comforted and special, and that remembering and being forgotten are important things to him.

We will talk about him to our T next week and we take care of him.

Thanks.

Hi,
I just want to send a virtual hug to the One who is not Jules.

I also want to ask if it is okay to let my little one talk here even if it's not DID. She wants to talk to everyone.

WindRiderFairy wrote:Hi,
I just want to send a virtual hug to the One who is not Jules.

I also want to ask if it is okay to let my little one talk here even if it's not DID. She wants to talk to everyone.

Thanks.

Littles don't need any diagnosis to write in here. It's DID enough, that she exists. What it says on your papers is not her fault (or yours). In here we think about DID more of a spectrum thing anyway, we don't make any difference between the ones who have DDNOS/OSDD or DID, and there are some who don't have formal diagnosis at all. This thread is for littles to talk about difficult topics, and there's "normal" Littles' thread too, about happier things and everyday things. It's pinned to be the first thread always, so littles find it easily. In there it's meant to be super safe, so littles can also be there alone.

Welcome.

Floralie wrote:

WindRiderFairy wrote:Hi,
I just want to send a virtual hug to the One who is not Jules.

I also want to ask if it is okay to let my little one talk here even if it's not DID. She wants to talk to everyone.

Thanks.

Littles don't need any diagnosis to write in here. It's DID enough, that she exists. What it says on your papers is not her fault (or yours). In here we think about DID more of a spectrum thing anyway, we don't make any difference between the ones who have DDNOS/OSDD or DID, and there are some who don't have formal diagnosis at all. This thread is for littles to talk about difficult topics, and there's "normal" Littles' thread too, about happier things and everyday things. It's pinned to be the first thread always, so littles find it easily. In there it's meant to be super safe, so littles can also be there alone.

Welcome.

Thanks. I'm still quite new to all this, learning every day. It's good to know a diagnosis is not necessary to talk here.

My little wants to say
i dont like snow snow is scary nobody hit me nobod f someone hits i cry

Hello WindriderFairy Little.

No one will hit you here you are safe.
-Mo

TW !!! animal abuse death and emotional abuse!!!

I want to share the following memory that shadow has shown me. Shadow is a fragment and not aware of the outside world but I'm hoping if I share on here somehow it might help???? Shadow has no gender and is only 2. Shadow is autistic so didn't understand our mothers threats were exageration Shadow took them at face value. shadow thinks in pictures and emotions rather than words I'm going to do my best. - Mo

Lucy was MY rabbit. She lived in the back garden in a wire run. She didnt have a house or a bowl or a block or anything except grass. If I found a dandylion I would feed it to Lucy and stroke her soft fur through the wire. Her ears grew longer and her teath grew longer and she stopped eating dandylions but she still came for cuddles. One day when we got back from great grandads Lucy was dead. Mummy cut open her belly and pulled lucys guts out. I cried, I wanted to bury Lucy. Mummy said if I didnt stop sniveling she would spank me all the way to hell. I watched quietly as she skinned lucy. Mummy said some bad words and threw lucy in the bin. I waited untill mummy was gone and climbed in the bin to fetch lucy and bury her. Mummy caught me and called me a dirty bitch and said if I was going be a dog I could live like one. She locked me in the garden shed untill it was time for nursary the next day.


TW ENDS

I'm so sorry about rabbit

Nobody hit me mom said if i dont do this she will hit me but nobody is allowed to hit anyone but I dont like cleaning house but adult says have to clean and bad person says have to clean or somebody will hit and lock out of house

i dont know if i'm lying about little one but she wants to talk

dad and mom is a bad person
but adult is not but adult says have to clean and when clean somebody might hit if not clean well

Hi fairy little

Dont worry bbout not cleenin well. Adult not hurt you. portant thing is you try. You can ask nother part to do cleanin an you shut your eyes so you dont see and no worry?


EVERYBODY PLEEEEESSSEEEE

I need help. Mo a big sad ball of sadness. Elspeth said something to her and now Mo all sad and angry an she not talk to me no more. Grace lady and me bin doing a lot of sharing but she cant look after me like Mo did cos grace lady just an outside part she not have an inside body not like me and mo. Grace lady just switch on and off.

Now I all alone and Mo a big ball of sad and angry and there a big wall so big grace lady can't hear mo no more and I want to make mo happy and I know grace lady said no more typin last week but we no gonna see doctor doug for nother 2 weeks and I wanna help mo now.

Peter (with grace typing)

Hi Peter,

I'm sorry you feel all alone and Mo is upset. It sounds like Grace is helping you, at least with typing, so that's good. It's nice you want to help Mo. Maybe you can send her those feelings?

This is different, but when our T was so sad a few weeks ago, I couldn't help him, but I wanted him to know I was sorry for what was happening to him, so I told him I was sorry, and that I felt sad for him. And he said that being sad for and with another person was like the best present you could give to someone else. So even if you don't know what Mo is sad about, maybe you can send her the feeling that you're sad for her and with her?

Nadia

I try ask adult cleaning I am big girl
I will eat lollipop when adult cleans

Peter give Mo a hug?

Friend took us to macdonalds. I remembered a lot of things because body hasnt been there in TEN years. That's two hands. And now body doesnt like it anymore because i only had small portion and body threw up.
Or maybe it was memories.
I used to like it cuz you get toys. And my sister liked it a lot. She thought it was cool.

Later at home i had tea with honey and that made the tummy and throat better. I'm scared for the day and I will hide inside. Body sick is no fun. But body no rest is also not fun. I think body is angry about no rest.