Left brain

Hey

So I recently got into some minimal music (for those interested see Terry Riley, in c).

Some minimal music will have variations on repitition designed to catch out your left brain. The result after long enough is it can "give up" listening. The result can feel like timelessness (as opposed to time lost) and like your creative/emotional part feeling unbounded, as your left brain gives up trying to analyse.

So I think I experienced this, and for me it provided an interesting lens. When it happened (on a flight as it happened) a little came in control and was v. sad. Other right side parts were there, they let them be upset but comforted and made them feel safe, under a blanket.

I wasn't present. I know I'm definitely "in the left brain" if you will. I know day to day anp is very strongly left brain and I take over to distract when they are tired but right side parts are sad.

I've posted a couple of times about EMDR; part of the role of that is to connect parts of the brain together, I wonder if there's something here that accounts for it being different and sometimes overwhelming for people with dissociative disorders.

Anyhow I didn't see anything about this so have shared ponderings. Does anyone resonate or does anyone know if this is a real thing?

Thanks for reading!

I'm going to look into it. I experienced timelessness when having acupuncture. It was very refreshing. Thanks for this.

-- Wed Feb 20, 2019 9:23 am --

I had to look up edmr. I thought I didn't know what it is but I've been using tapping therapy for years. Not so much eye movement. I read a study about a woman terrified of water, in therapy for years and nothing worked until her therapist used tapping therapy and she was in a swimming pool.

Linking parts of the brain it seems to me would be effective with DID. I found some minimal music on YouTube. Gonna try it tonight.

I tried the minimal music for 7 mins. I have a headache. Every time I nearly dropped off to sleep it pierced through my skull. I was just starting to dream about "suede juice" whatever that is and aaaaahhhh pierced straight from the back to the front of my brain like a thin sword.

It's very painful music. I think I tolerated it for 7 mins due to my blocked ringing ears.

But i tried it, glad I tried it and glad it is good for you

I'm not sure if I have heard about it, but like more than twenty years ago I read about something like it. It was classical music, but some of the sounds were taken off of it, until it no longer sounds like music at all, and it did some changes to your thinking processes or something like that, revealed something. It was time before internet was everywhere, so it wasn't available for me. I found it by accident, back then I was sure about having a tumor in my brain and I read a lot about brain tumors, and somehow ended up reading about it.

(Then my mom took me to doctor for some reason, don't remember why, and there I started crying and told I think I have brain tumor. Doctor asked about the symptoms, but I couldn't remember any. She asked if I have headaches or few other symptoms, and I did not, and I couldn't explain why I thought I had the tumor thing. In reality they were probably dissociative symptoms, but I couldn't remember them there. Doctor said it doesn't sound like brain tumor, because there I thought I had no symptoms what so ever and was kind of confused why I was so sure I had it. But when I read all the info from the books I related a lot. In the end she said I'm probably depressed, but nothing was done then because of it. I didn't go there for any psychological reason, I don't remember why the appointment was, I just remember my mom was surprised about why I had cried. But then the overwhelming feeling had already gone away, and I couldn't explain that either.)

Back then I really would have wanted to try out that music, but now I'm more careful about doing things like that on my own. Can ask about it from T. We are gonna try EMDR and if it works for me, although T said she usually is hesitant to use it with patients with dissociative symptoms. So my thinking process is, that if she is careful about using something that connects the brain, and it is something that happens in the presence of trauma therapist in safe environment, I won't try to knock part of my brain off by myself, alone at home. Especially when I do know there are parts hiding, but I have no clue who they are. I don't want 20 parts suddenly come out uncontrolled or something, that can be too much for them and for me.