Ponyta: Thread for my other Personalities (Insiders)

**Trigger Warning: replying about sexual alters**
We have a smaller system than yours but also have at least 3 sexual alters, one of whom is a lot more active at certain times during our menstrual cycle. We've noticed that certain non-sexual alters are also more likely to come out during certain other times during the cycle.

The sexual alter who is most active and activated is generally a pleasure-seeker and sometimes really good sensory experiences help enough, like dark chocolate, adorning the body in rich colors and makeup, or dancing. There are probably non-sexual activities that whoever is fronting or these parts specifically can engage in that will alleviate other needs while those aren't an option.
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Ponyta wrote:Is it common to have a "shadow" version of yourself? I'm not even sure if that's what they would be called. Then again some of us thought that was cool (in video games) numerous years ago. Maybe that played some role.

I don't know if that's common specifically, but passively using creative devices from external world stuff we've been exposed to (including all forms of media) is pretty much how all of this works. If you meet someone who has qualities you would benefit from to survive, you may form a part like them. If you need a part who can hide and you're exposed to the concept of chameleons, you may get a chameleon, but if you watch science fiction you might get a shape-shifter or a hologram, or if you read fantasy books then you might get a wizard who can cast spells on themselves to change appearance or to hide.

When you recognize that has happened, you can use that to communicate with that part. What are the mechanics of shadow parts in games? What motivates them, why are they formed, how can you find them in a game? At least some of that will probably have translated to your alter.

SeveralCrows wrote:**Trigger Warning: replying about sexual alters**
We have a smaller system than yours but also have at least 3 sexual alters, one of whom is a lot more active at certain times during our menstrual cycle. We've noticed that certain non-sexual alters are also more likely to come out during certain other times during the cycle.

The sexual alter who is most active and activated is generally a pleasure-seeker and sometimes really good sensory experiences help enough, like dark chocolate, adorning the body in rich colors and makeup, or dancing. There are probably non-sexual activities that whoever is fronting or these parts specifically can engage in that will alleviate other needs while those aren't an option.
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Ponyta wrote:Is it common to have a "shadow" version of yourself? I'm not even sure if that's what they would be called. Then again some of us thought that was cool (in video games) numerous years ago. Maybe that played some role.

I don't know if that's common specifically, but passively using creative devices from external world stuff we've been exposed to (including all forms of media) is pretty much how all of this works. If you meet someone who has qualities you would benefit from to survive, you may form a part like them. If you need a part who can hide and you're exposed to the concept of chameleons, you may get a chameleon, but if you watch science fiction you might get a shape-shifter or a hologram, or if you read fantasy books then you might get a wizard who can cast spells on themselves to change appearance or to hide.

When you recognize that has happened, you can use that to communicate with that part. What are the mechanics of shadow parts in games? What motivates them, why are they formed, how can you find them in a game? At least some of that will probably have translated to your alter.

Hey- thanks for your reply! We greatly appreciate it!


I believe I'm learning more about the shadow parts lately. I'm not sure if the same thing applies to all of them- but- the shadow version of myself (Weirdo) seems to be opening up to me lately. It turns out that we aren't so different after-all. He's almost like some kind of "parallel" of myself. He owns a farm in his world- same as me. The thing is- his farm is badly diseased (nothing will grow there). That's only one problem. A whole lot more is wrong. I believe that is why he hated me so much. He was jealous of me. I'm trying to help him lately. To answer your question- in video games (at least the ones we played before)- the shadow parts are usually the "dark" version of the original person. They usually live in some other dimension- which I believe explains the portal they come through (to get to our inner world). It's still very rough however. Blaze just met Shadow Blaze, and Wolverine met Shadow Wolverine today. Let's just say- that didn't go so well. I'm not sure if it was mentioned or not before- but our host even met the shadow version of her self. She even gets upset around her. For some reason- this tends to happen. I know firsthand how it feels. I felt the same way when I first met Shadow Weirdo.

It's really rough for us lately- especially with those coming from the shadow world. I'm still not welcome there. Shadow Weirdo says he would allow me to visit his farm- but- for my own safety I'm not allowed. He says our host is welcome because it's safer for her. He gave reasons why. He said he would help protect her. Shadow Bandit supposedly also is. I'm worried. I don't fully trust them yet- although- I'm a lot closer to Shadow Weirdo than I originally was.

Today is not going so good for us- unfortunately. A lot of us aren't doing so good. A lot of us are very depressed.

I'm wondering about something however. Our host is messing around in the shadow world (the world "inside" our inner world). I noticed Weirdo already mentioned about it. Well anyway- is it possible that's affecting her in some way? She's been acting weird ever since going there. Today really took the cake however.

In our inner world- I'm her husband. So I know completely how she normally acts. Today was a major difference. I do know the shadow version of her was watching however. I kind of suspect that had something to do with it. They still don't get along. It's a long story- but I can and will go into detail- if asked.

~Bandit

Ponyta wrote:Today is not going so good for us- unfortunately. A lot of us aren't doing so good. A lot of us are very depressed.

I'm wondering about something however. Our host is messing around in the shadow world (the world "inside" our inner world). I noticed Weirdo already mentioned about it. Well anyway- is it possible that's affecting her in some way? She's been acting weird ever since going there. Today really took the cake however.

In our inner world- I'm her husband. So I know completely how she normally acts. Today was a major difference. I do know the shadow version of her was watching however. I kind of suspect that had something to do with it. They still don't get along. It's a long story- but I can and will go into detail- if asked.

~Bandit

Hey- Bandit. I noticed that too. A lot of us did. I'm afraid she (our host) will be mad at us if we go into more detail however. Mainly because she feels as if she's going absolutely "crazy". She feels like everyone thinks she is anyway. She's acting very strange lately- especially in our inner world. I also suspect the new ones have something to do with it. I know you know this- but she acted like you get sometimes. You know she hates that- especially if you get that way in front of us (guys). So you're not the only one who is shocked- a lot of us are. David and Yondu especially. I also noticed she acted that way- when her shadow version came over to cause trouble. So I'm almost one hundred percent certain that played a major role- in our host's behavior. Shadow Bandit was amused- in case you didn't notice. By amused- I mean- he thought it was funny that she (the shadow version of our host) couldn't cause trouble.

-Weirdo

Everything is a mess today. We aren't doing good. Our host is extremely sad. She got into a fight with the one guy (in our inner world). He started it. We don't know how to deal with him right now.

I almost forgot- our host wonders how she can feel pain (in the body) from what happens in the inner world. Due to the fight- she claims she had bad pain in her arm- to her shoulder-blade. She doesn't understand why. She says that's creepy.

I'm really sorry this happened.

From what I know it's totally not uncommon to physically feel things that happen in the inner world. The mind is really powerful, that's totally possible.
It's like when you're in a dream and somebody hurts you, and you still feel the pain even though nobody is really hurting the body. It may seem creepy, but it's how the mind works in some cases.
I don't really know the exact mechanism though, I'm sorry about that.

Hope everything will be better soon.

exul wrote:I'm really sorry this happened.

From what I know it's totally not uncommon to physically feel things that happen in the inner world. The mind is really powerful, that's totally possible.
It's like when you're in a dream and somebody hurts you, and you still feel the pain even though nobody is really hurting the body. It may seem creepy, but it's how the mind works in some cases.
I don't really know the exact mechanism though, I'm sorry about that.

Hope everything will be better soon.

Hey- thanks for your reply! Your kind words are greatly appreciated!

Everything is still a mess. There are strong feelings lately. Someone almost got up and walked out of our therapist appointment today. They are incredibly upset about us going there. They want us to cancel therapy all together- and also want us to stop using this site all together as well. It isn't Shadow. He used to feel this same way- but it isn't him this time. We feel crazy with everything that's been going on lately. It caught me off guard. That's hard for me to believe. It goes to show- I know nothing about the shadow world. Today was not a good day.

Everything is still a mess. Our host is very depressed- so are a lot of us. There's a lot of problems in the inner world right now. Not to mention the stuff we've already been dealing with in the outer world. We have so many worries/problems bringing us down lately. It's not cool.