Positivity Thread

I took some time this morning for painting while others were listening to a podcast. I thought at first that I was not doing very good - because it was not as good as I hoped - but when I realized our host Zami was kind of running in circles inside out of despair of not being as good as me despite years of training, it dawned on me, I am good at painting. I just did not realize it before.

-David-

For the past few weeks, I've been hearing someone say, "I love you!" at different times during the day--especially when I'm first waking up and when I'm trying to go to sleep. It comes with a kind of bubbly happy feeling, but I wasn't able to figure out who was talking and who they were talking to. I thought maybe someone was thinking about how they felt about the T--that was my best guess. I knew they weren't saying it to the husband--he's around so they could say it directly to him if they wanted to.

But when I got up in the middle of the night last night and started hearing it again, I finally figured out that it was Little saying that to me, and all she wanted was for me to say, "Love you, too!" So now we have this little routine of, "I love you!" "Love you, too!" and it makes her very happy to get that response back from me each time.

So periodically we (Zor and I) meet with like friends online that are aware of us... we get on and play "Dead By Daylight" together, and sometimes "Golf With Your Friends". And we did this last night... got to play and chat and just have a good time without stress of "what if ppl realize/find out" or "how much do we need to hide" kinda stuff.

Basically he runs a few matches for an hour or so, then I get to... so we each get an hour or so, generally we play about 2-3 hours...

We got to last night, which is super awesome, and the ppl we play with KNOW about us and can like chat with both of us and stuff... It's super awesome to have this every few weeks to like have an outlet (at least for me) and for Zor and I to do something kinda sorta together... together'ish.

Anyhow, it's a positivity thingy, so I thought I'd share. Super awesome ppl that know about us, are understanding, and don't like freak out or like hate us cuz of who we are and how we exist. Super cool. Would totally LOVE to meet them in person some day at a convention!

{\Pixie/}

-- Sat Nov 09, 2019 11:03 am --

TheGangsAllHere wrote:For the past few weeks, I've been hearing someone say, "I love you!" at different times during the day--especially when I'm first waking up and when I'm trying to go to sleep. It comes with a kind of bubbly happy feeling, but I wasn't able to figure out who was talking and who they were talking to. I thought maybe someone was thinking about how they felt about the T--that was my best guess. I knew they weren't saying it to the husband--he's around so they could say it directly to him if they wanted to.

But when I got up in the middle of the night last night and started hearing it again, I finally figured out that it was Little saying that to me, and all she wanted was for me to say, "Love you, too!" So now we have this little routine of, "I love you!" "Love you, too!" and it makes her very happy to get that response back from me each time.

AWWWWW... That is SOOOOOO sweet! <3 I love to hear that adorbs "love you" stuff!

We woke up last night from a nightmare- Zor had no idea what it was, just that we woke up... Chloe had a weird dream and like freaked out... and Zor being sorta kinda with it to know he was up, went and got the other plushie toy to go with Pinkie Pie for her. So she had both to cuddle with after that. Isn't that like totally adorbs?!

{\Pixie/}

Our gf who knows about us got to talk to Akane and get to know him better last night which was really sweet!

And our friend who knows is wanting to get to know everyone better (he only know Neko and myself really). He even is planning on having a day with Sarabi just for them to cook and bake together and host a holiday party! Sarabi is super excited!
-Alex

I lowered down medication, because I realized it just made me tired and it seems to distract feeling others. I think this med we're on now is like all meds we've ever used. It's good at first and things get better, but then it somehow doesn't work in long run anyway. But I'm not here to think about that, that's the cause, I'm here for the end result and other stuff.

Jules is definitely back being a teenager. He's feeling well, I knew he had grown back to be 14 but kind of didn't have connection but now.. WOW. He has some rebellious teen parts fronting who wanna do rebellious stuff or at least do SOMETHING, which is great. I haven't done anything really,but he's really restless and needs to get outside and see people and stuff. And has rebellious attitude. Which feels great, to teenagers. And I feel I'm one myself too atm because of him, which is why we leave now and go outside, so bye.

Floralie wrote:I lowered down medication, because I realized it just made me tired and it seems to distract feeling others. I think this med we're on now is like all meds we've ever used. It's good at first and things get better, but then it somehow doesn't work in long run anyway. But I'm not here to think about that, that's the cause, I'm here for the end result and other stuff.

Jules is definitely back being a teenager. He's feeling well, I knew he had grown back to be 14 but kind of didn't have connection but now.. WOW. He has some rebellious teen parts fronting who wanna do rebellious stuff or at least do SOMETHING, which is great. I haven't done anything really,but he's really restless and needs to get outside and see people and stuff. And has rebellious attitude. Which feels great, to teenagers. And I feel I'm one myself too atm because of him, which is why we leave now and go outside, so bye.

That's such good news!! We're so happy for your system

I'm often frustrated that I do achieve nothing in my life, that I don't ever find time to do anything I want. But I start slowly to see, that as a system, we actually do things and achieve thing and we are quite good at some of them.

In our vacation day I started to back up all the art I found scattered on all our devices. I'm not even done with one yet device and already have saved over 100 drawings and some of them are really cool.
It was actually funny too, to realize that I almost always can say which alter did draw which. R'lyeh and Rhea have both quite distinct art styles, and there are apparently also sometimes little, who are making some doodles.
Autumn did write down so much story and game ideas in their creative notebook too. Nothing is finished of the stuff, but there is way more information and overflowing creativity there too, than I had imagined. I also found a prototype of a game, which was coded very clean and nice (I guess it was not Autumn, but Xan or Lee, who did the coding)
Kiran is good at our job as well, and managed to hold to it, even after the whole rest of his department got fired and he keep us in an acceptable financial situation.
And a moment ago I had a chance to listen to Fae, playing on the keyboard and he is also actually good too, and after I asked how he did learn to play that nicely, he told me that he is practicing usually at least half an hour every day... (if every alter is using like 30 minutes of our awake free time, I don't have to wonder that not much more is left for myself)

So, while I think that I'm doing nothing and I am a failure, many in our system are doing quite a lot of stuff and are good at them!

-Alea

Hello everyone! We were here months ago and we wanted to make an update post. Since we were last here, two very old members, Lee and Lisa, who have been with the body since it was 7, have fully integrated. It's the processing of a trauma from those ages and it's so good for the system and the host alike but it made all of us mourn the loss of our dear family members. One other then active member, Andy, has gone to dormancy while another male protector alter gained a lot bigger of a role in the system and finally got himself a name after being around for years. Dave is our new male protector.

Recently the host Mia has also been taking a lot of initiative, taking a lot more time and space in the outside world as well. Some very upsetting stuff happened to her/us in the last few months, as well as some amazing stuff. We have run away from our abusive mother, who has been becoming more and more abusive for the past few years (even more so than before) and we're now living with our partner who is a delight to be around, loves Mia to the moon and back and is really respectful to all of our boundaries. He also knows about our illness and didn't even bat an eye on it. None of us have been formally introduced to him yet however, because it doesn't feel safe. Although Pi has been speaking to him frequently and Dave has been around to keep an eye here and there.

We hope you are all safe from COVID-19. Remember to keep socialisation to a minimum and wash your hands, and if you're showing symptoms don't panic! We might or might not be more active from here on out, but our day to day life has been a little hectic so who really knows. Be safe! - collective

Great post, vix people. Welcome back, and congratulations on all of your recent accomplishments.

We can all use a bit of positivity right now, so thank you.

MDs

Had a small break through with B.

She turned in one of her "half hour of my time" coupons I gave her for Christmas to help set up the new printer. It was after day 4 of 12 hour shifts and we had just got the kids to bed. I didn't want to, I was ready to go to sleep, but knew it was important or she wouldn't have asked.

Afterwards, she said, "You know, you show me a lot of respect." I told her, "I try." Making progress.