by SystemFlo » Tue Feb 26, 2019 3:00 pm
We are getting results with the body.
I had a physical condition, that made me really tired all the time. Last winter ( 2017-2018) I gained some weight because of how much less I was doing anything physical. If I ran 200 meters, I was already totally out of breath. And as I stopped moving, all the muscles "died" as well, and I started to be really stiff. I couldn't sit on the floor with my back straight, because it already felt like stretch in the legs etc. That wasn't because of the condition, it was just lack of exercise, and the lack of exercise was because of the condition. It didn't bother me too much, but when any of the boys came to the body, they felt it, because they are so different from me physically.
Now the physical condition behind the tiredness and getting out of breath is cured. After I started to be OK, I still got out of breath too easily, was too stiff and had the weight, because it had been so long since exercising last time. My boys are all somewhat athletic, and my arms and legs feel very short to them too, because they all are taller. I can't change my height, but I can change my body weight, do some stretching and get in better shape.
Now I'm fitting to my European size 36 clothes again. (That's UK size 8, US size 6, letter size S.) That sized shirts fit perfectly on the body, but are bit too tight on the arms. That was exactly what we've been trying to do, to get the belly away and have some muscles in the upper body. All my boys have some muscles in their arms. Now I can sit with better posture again. Fourteen is still sleeping as far as I know, but if he some day wants to start to come out again, he will find his way to the body better, because it doesn't feel so different from his, that he can't sit like he would otherwise.
I don't like exercising myself at all. It's been Lucas doing the work. He comes to the body with me, and he likes the feeling of muscles doing work. He doesn't like it the wrong way, it's not anyway self destructive he likes the pain, he likes it because then you know it affects the right places.
Now he would really badly want heavier dumbbells. I can't argue with him. It does feel good to think that when we started, we did 30 times certain kind of lifts. Now we do 150 of them to get the same feeling. I'm not gonna train crazy big muscles, just enough that you can see them.
Life feels way better now that we are back in business and able to do things normally again. Changing sheets felt like exercising before, because I was so out of shape. At least there is no physical reason that stops us from doing things anymore. That AND the fact there is much more sunlight during the days makes me feel energetic. From physical point of view I could work full hours now. Our mind is still not there, or even near, but this was about being positive.