Does anyone have trouble reading?

Ponyta wrote:

IainEtc wrote:When Host used to try to read books about DID he dissociated and couldn't remember them. He'd read the first chapter like about 6 times and never get to the next one because stuff fell out of his head.

Iain

That sounds like me. I used to be able to read fine in my mind at first (only problems trying to read out loud)....but nowadays even reading in my mind has issues. I can read a sentence one second and forget what I read the next. Very frustrating.....especially when trying to read a book.

Thanks for this post, Ponyta. Dissociation to any degree causes problems with focus, which reading requires. It's been frustrating for us too. Our situation as we were exploring whether we had DID was that we couldn't retain sentences we just read in order to connect it to the next. We discovered that the same thing didn't happen much with less academic works, like biographies or autobiographies about people with DID. So most of our early reading about DID came from such works.

We're generally been a voracious reader when there's something somebody wants to learn about, but there has been a lot of periodic interference (dissociation) in life affecting our ability to read or rather absorb what we're reading. The experience of reading the same sentence(s) again and again and not being able to focus on the meaning has been a random, maddening feature of life since roughly junior high. We really needed to come up with a solution as we continued our education.

In college our trouble focusing during reading was hugely negative so a new alter Neville joined us. His primary job was to read aloud, using the English accent of our grandmother, who had read to us as a child. It seems he pulled the accent from other alters who had it at that point. Reading aloud in an accent other than our own was a weird, quirky thing that we didn't figure out was connected to DID until a few years ago. The experience was of being read to by someone else, someone calm, while I sat back and listened -- even if Neville was fronting and walking. As we've moved closer together, it feels more like I'm reading to myself so we're losing the benefit. It's hard to be both reader and audience. Being multiple had its advantages.

Still we rely on him occasionally when we hit a wall. His presence seems to break the interference to our focus more quickly. We're influencing him to use our normal accent so it will bring him more in line with the rest of us.

I have dyslexia which went unnoticed till I was 15. And number confusion between 2s and 5s. That's generally.

I have a part who can't read. They watch tv but if there's writing on the TV then they just go and someone comes who reads. It kinda ruins watching TV - apparently lol. I don't actually know who it is who can't read - nope I do know, it's Peter, he can't read at all and doesn't want to. Mandy can read a little but not alot and the others are book worms. I asked "Jane" who I sort of just discovered, seems she does "know" everything. On the downside she will "no comment" or say "I can't tell you" if she doesn't feel "allowed to say" or has been specially asked apparently. I think Jane is really important. Sorry I'm going on a tangent.