Is there anyone else like me?

a few years ago I felt i related to the character female from Ghost in the Shell, as she is nearly completely mechanical with only thing left that is organic was her mind.

I used Seroquel for some time at one point. First I liked it. Back then I didn't know what's wrong with me, so I thought it's all the internal dreaming and imagination that keeps me from having outside life I would have wanted. I liked Seroquel, because it made my head silent. I thought when I will feel silent inside, I will go and start to do outside things more.

It didn't happen.

Of course it didn't, my "loud" head was not the reason to my problems with having no energy to deal with "real life", the reason for it was that the host-personality didn't have what it takes. She still didn't have what it takes with silent mind. She end up having nothing, next to nothing internally and not anything more she had before in outside life. It was just pure emptiness all the way, in and out.

That's why we didn't want to continue with the medication. It took away all the creativity, and that is one of the few thing our host then could know about her self, that she is creative. Without it, there's nothing left.

We don't want any medication that is made for people with psychosis. They can silent our mind, but that is not gonna help any way. I love the feeling when mind flows effortlessly and all thoughts fly. It will mean there are happy parts talking to each other in my mind, commenting funny things and having fun time. Or someone is being exited. I don't wanna lose that feeling, ever.

I don't have the ability to be exited by myself. If I get exited, it will be some of the insiders thinking or talking about the thing we are exited for, it's never just me. That's why I wanna stay connected to them.

What a great post!

We certainly have 'robots', but we use the term 'droids' We've found this is much more respectful for them, and us. We were inspired by nice sci-fi I guess, where 'robots' are given respect and the status of a soul.

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We've found that what you call 'human' can be very close to electronics anyways, like a 'robot'. A lot of the Human body is much like a robot in function, and design...and there is nothing wrong with that at all. It's great!

We remember watching 'Prometheus' the film, which is super scary and triggering, but so wonderful and beautiful too. It brought up a lot of ideas about what it is to be Human, and robotic...and all sorts.

For us, everything has a 'soul', an energy beyond just its physical space. A human has it, so does a droid or robot, so does a plant, or a pencil, or a computer...all to different levels. Really, we try to respect each object in the world, as best we can.

We've always thought, gosh look at how we (the human race) treats what we create!? We make such wonderful things, like electronics and robots, and then treat them like trash, or say 'they have no soul', or 'they are nothing'. Very strange...

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Much blessings and peace to all the robots and droids out there!



Zelda - One in the Albion System

I have a non-human alter. He (she) is the only one that I know by name...the Ambassador. An alien type, but very dignified and seemingly kind. From what research I have done on the topic, it is entirely possible that this is a Gatekeeper. I really don't know beyond that, but the research seems to generally be pretty descriptive of what I experience. Once I had the dream experience of a rather bold and somewhat threatening alter, half human, half robot...like a cyborg.