Did anyone else think that their DID crisis was spiritual

I thought I was on asome sort of spiritual journey.

Eventully I found out about DID and I realized I was going threw a DID crisis.


I suppose you can say the growth we make while healing g abd figuring out oneself is a spiritual journey.

Anyways,I think it caused some religious trauma that I didnt have before. Not massivr trauma but I have a bit of a complex. A few triggers. But that's beaides the point

Am I alone in this?

Hello,

It has helped to see DID as a spiritual journey where even dissociation and switching are ways of getting in touch with parts of myself and even parts of the universe that are usually hidden. Not everyone in my system thinks this way. Spirituality has always been important to us so when the abuse threatened it I appeared to continue our spiritual life safely hidden from view.

I wish healing for you. Thank you for starting this thread.

Raven

Well... the system is scientific materialist, atheist. Not only is the most obvious and logical method of understanding reality, but it suits our ANP fixations well. If I rule out the possibility of spiritual phenomena then my world is more organized and safer.

It wasn't always that way. I had some negative early training in Christianity. As a child I saw the double-think of a god who claims to love but threatens eternal damnation. Now I see that is crazy-making intended to control people. I'm afraid of mind control and so I study it. I was always interested in religious ideas though, some dark and traumatic too. There are parts of me currently fixated on some of the more terrifying things described in the Bible. Not of eternal damnation because that is not real, but we're afraid of the parts that might be real.

What do you mean by religious trauma or triggers? If you feel like sharing.

Nyaaaaa at first J thought this was all part of meditation buttttt it was actually the meditative state breaking the walls we had put up to try and hide from her hehe eventually she found out the truth

-Jo

I don't know if I thought this was spiritual per se, but I know some of my parts effected my spiritual walk and awareness- they were far more "lifestyle" faithful than just "belief and attending church" spiritual. Through talking to them for years, before I was aware of us being connected and part of a single whole together, my faith changed a lot and dramatically...

IMHO, it's stronger, deeper, and more meaningful to me (and likely them), which would NOT have happened without them and their influence.

I have two friends (well a friend and an acquaintance) that think this could be a spiritual issue and seeking for prayer and stuff to solve/assist in healing this. I don't think that's quite the way I see all of us. We're the product of a single mind shared among several due to damage from our youth... As strong as my faith is, that can't be "prayed away". BUT I do believe with prayer and faith, the process can be easier and complete.

um I am also a very 'spiritual' person and have also had and do have a lot of spiritual experiences which I have wondered where the two meet and what it means and I don't know.
But I think it's cause of the spiritual side of it that has for me made it take so long to realize I could have DID too.

We would certainly say we are 'Spiritual', very spiritual indeed! I agree that both are connected, as 'spiritual' is just a part of life. When we started growth and healing, it was initially from a 'spiritual' place, but then this brought up more DID stuff in the process.

We'd been living together, mostly aware of each other, for our whole lives almost. I remember we saw each other in a more 'spirit guide' way...for many many years...especially our deeper personalities, the ones that make all the major decisions.

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We also experience the spirit world too, like see energies, ghosts, spirit beings...all the time! They are a part of our daily experience of life. This caused a lot of confusion (and still does) about understanding our DID, and reality in general. We've come to realise we are a group of many people, experiencing 'reality' on many different levels, all of which is constantly shifting and moving! Gosh...it can be a lot sometimes!

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We love this topic and could write about it all day...but that will do for now!


Yanni - One in the Albion System

WeAreOne420 wrote:I thought I was on asome sort of spiritual journey.

Eventully I found out about DID and I realized I was going threw a DID crisis.


I suppose you can say the growth we make while healing g abd figuring out oneself is a spiritual journey.

Anyways,I think it caused some religious trauma that I didnt have before. Not massivr trauma but I have a bit of a complex. A few triggers. But that's beaides the point

Am I alone in this?

We were the opposite. Discovering the DID CAUSED a spriitual crisis for a time for one of our parts. I am a Christian, strong in my faith. Britney began to wonder what the spiritual ramifications of DID for the soul are.

Is it one soul that's fractured and will be put back together upon death of the body?
Or when the mind fractured, did it mean that each part had her own soul?
What if one part is a Christian, but another part didn't accept Christ on her own?
And if the soul is fractured and will be put back together, what happens if one part is Christian and the other part isn't? Does it negate the salvation of the whole?
Or does the one part who isn't sure get left out and left behind?
Will the personality be all smooshed back together into one soul? Does that mean each part will cease to exist and only the "original" or "host" will remain?
.... and so on.

It was very upsetting to her for a while. She has finally found peace. While she still has no concrete answer to the answer of fractured one, or individual many souls... She is happy where she is spiritually (Christian), and trusts that in the end all will end up as it should, regardless of what that looks like.

I know it's not the same, but I feel like it's related, and relevant to the topic.

K

sleepingwolf wrote:- - Mild trigger warning --

We also experience the spirit world too, like see energies, ghosts, spirit beings...all the time! They are a part of our daily experience of life. This caused a lot of confusion (and still does) about understanding our DID, and reality in general. We've come to realise we are a group of many people, experiencing 'reality' on many different levels, all of which is constantly shifting and moving! Gosh...it can be a lot sometimes!

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Same with us. We experience different realities, interact with beings, and live at least partially in an otherworld. Most of us believe we are the same kind of being and are from an otherworld.
After a lot of pain, we've realized that we're much better off accepting this as the reality we experience even though it's not other people's reality.
It's worth noting though that our spirituality is pagan.

myce wrote:Well... the system is scientific materialist, atheist. Not only is the most obvious and logical method of understanding reality, but it suits our ANP fixations well. If I rule out the possibility of spiritual phenomena then my world is more organized and safer.

Yeah okay, obvious and logical, lol. It's also obvious and logical that creatures who evolved for life on planet earth would lack the hardware to understand the mysteries of the universe. So that would make us agnostic, no? There is a bit of a spiritual crisis inside, and related to dissociative disorder. But it's not something I can talk about now.