Recurring, frustrating depression

AAAAAAgh! If I had the energy I would be very frustrated.
I knew the depression was coming back and I have been trying to do all the right things to keep it at bay, but here it is.
I have spent years trying to avoid it, talk about it, treat it, get to the bottom of it, but I have no idea why it always comes back in the end. It makes no difference. Periodically it returns.
I know why its back and its a response to some life changes which although stressful are positive. But here I am, grabbing defeat from the jaws of victory. Again.

AAAAAAAgh!

Very sorry to hear that.

We understand what you mean.....A lot of us have that struggle too.

We Hope you feel better soon!

I write a list of things I am thankful for. When I have a flashback and my depression worsens I write about what happened. It helps. I try to deattach myself from my depression.

Zed.

I usually get depressed from november to february. every year.
taking vitamins, doing light therapy, working with the system, working out, you name it, no change so far.
I reduced my goal to something that I can actually control, like how I take care of myself thru the winter. if I can't control if the depression comes or not, what can I control?
that kind of makes it easier. but hell, its depression, its never easy.