Inside and outside versions of parts

I think it was Violet who wrote about how their parts may forget everything what's inside, when they front, to the point they don't know who they are themself. (If it was someone else, I'm apologizing for both of you.)

I think we have that, but as a complete opposite, at least with the subsystem. When they come here, they are who they are, and who they are is who they are in the inside world. That's their identity, they do know who they are in there. But when they go back in, I don't think this world exists for them anymore.

In a way it doesn't matter inside, what they did outside, it's just gone. It matters only when they come outside, or somewhere near the next time. It's like there would be two versions of each of them. The ones who come out, and the ones who never leave the inside.

When Fourteen had the thing with T and I apologized him from my part first, I saw him without a background, I saw his back, he was maybe sitting, looking the other way, and when I talked to him, I saw part of his face when he turned his head a little. He didn't look at me, I don't know where he was and what was he doing. It's like he would have been in nothingness. Or maybe I just couldn't see. I know he heard me, I felt he understood me, but he didn't say anything. He is separating himself now from everyone, I think because he's not feeling well. I think it was his outside version. In inside, me or T don't exist. We are outside things.

I could not imagine a situation where Sami would go to Lucas and start telling about how he visited outside today. It couldn't be like that, because that would mean their world wouldn't be real one, and it is to them. When they are in there, there is no outside world other than theirs. And when we drag the inner world out and "see" it around us in here, they are their inner versions. That's when I am no one. I couldn't talk to them then as me.

When I'm in contact with them, it's their outside versions. I can't start yelling into their world from outside. It would mean they would be hearing voices from the sky there then.

I'm talking my thoughts and opinions now, it's nothing they have confirmed, so I might be wrong too. I'm not sure what happens inside when I'm not thinking about them, because when I do, when I "go inside" it's very repetitious. In Sami's and Lucas' world it's early summer, they are having a car ride to the cabin with all others with them. It's the first time other's see Lucas. They've been in that cabin and on their way there for two years already (real world time). I'm thinking about it over and over again. Lucas is the newest member of the inner world. But with everyone, the first time others get to see the new one is very important. I'm thinking about it continuously about every one of them.

I don't know why it is like that. I have very short pieces of the stories, but I know a lot of about their backgrounds. Detailed info.

How is it with you others, do you think you have different versions of them, if they are in or out? I would very much want to hear how parts see this themself. What happens between inside and out to you?

I knmow we have this but I'm not doing a good job remembering it or telling about it. we have who we really are deep inside. and then who we are - as we want to be or see ourselves and that's still on the inside. but the outside isn't so much about who we are as the role we play or job we do.

time inside isn't like time outside. time is jard.

For us, we all understand that there is an inside world and an outside world. And we all understand that both worlds are "real."

Little Wolf doesn't concern herself with much. She is like you describe.. when she's out, she's out, and when she's in, she's in. She doesn't think about the inside world when she's outside, and she doesn't really care about the outside world when she's in. The one exception is if she smells a food she particularly likes, or if she perceives a threat from the outside, then she'll "peek" to see what's going on.

My insiders can watch the outside anytime they want. And they do that more often now than before. But they can also "close the door," so to speak, and only see the inside if they want.

My Britney is a lot like your Fourteen... she is more separate than the others and clings to that. And she is the one most likely to hide from the rest of us, especially when she's upset.

K