I'm back

Hi everyone, I haven't been here in a while. In fact, I have been dormant since the summer. All I know is that I woke up again after a dream a few weeks back. Well, this has happened a few times now but it's still confusing. To fill in the gaps, figure out what has been happening in life, and figure out who I am exactly.

My presence seems to cause a lot of panic in the system. A holy sh*t its you again kind of response from the main host, as she becomes aware of my presence. I used to think I was the main host but I realise now that can't be the case. I'm simply not around enough.

Things are very unsettled. I feel permently on high alert. Expecting danger, always ominous. Nightmares and somatic sensations. Tensions in the household, between me and hubby and the children as things have obviously shifted. I don't feel welcome so I'm having to 'hide' a lot. Why am I even here? I wish I could talk to my T but I don't even have one anymore! I remember having to take a break while I looked for work. Well now I have work but still no T. I'm not sure if I should get in touch or not. I feel kinda lost.

Very warm welcome back. It's honestly good to see you again. We've talked a lot (I had another username back then; EFragment). I'm sorry things have been, and are, so difficult for you. If it's possible to get back in touch with your T, or with another T, maybe do that, now you have the finances? And have you moved away already, from where you lived?

Things will calm down again. This happens, it's hard, but you're aware and that's great. It's also great that you found this site again.

Warm regards