Journey Thread: Ponyta (Ups & Downs)

Thank you....TheGangsAllHere....for your reply. I greatly appreciate it!

We had an appointment today with our T. She thinks things got a whole lot worse..... due to us not knowing how to grieve properly. Whatever that means.

I don't know. All I know is there are tons of problems lately (in the inner world). I don't feel right. It's almost as if I'm co-conscious with someone right now.....but I don't know who. Maybe someone new? Maybe even someone I know.......if so though.....it's one that's not close to me.

Weirdo....Shadow....Wolverine....and a bunch of the others say I'm acting strange. I feel weird.....but I don't know why.

Then there's the problem with the shadow world. One of the really bad troublemakers..... says he wants me to "play a game" with him. Okay.....that's seriously creepy (how he said it). I have no clue what "game". He won't tell me. A lot of the others say he can't be trusted. I have a feeling what the "game" might be....but I'm not 100% sure.

I don't know if I should agree or not. In a way.....I feel I should.....only because it might help us become closer......BUT.....it could go the other way too. I do know this troublemaker did some ridiculous stuff in the inner world already. I don't know what to do. They say he can't be trusted.

Ponyta and the guys,

We just wanted to say we've been reading your posts and we feel for you all. We hear what you are saying and you guys aren't alone. We relate to what you guys are going through.

We hope you can find a few moments of peace and calm, and wish that for all of you guys.

Sending out best wishes and positive vibes your way...

Melden

Thank you.....Melden! We greatly appreciate your kind words!

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My memory is BEYOND horrible lately. It is really scaring me. Yesterday.......I felt as if I "lost" the entire day....except for scattered bits and pieces. Today.....I don't even remember waking up....nor getting dressed. I don't know what's wrong.

Weirdo and the others were holding some kind of "secret meeting" yesterday. I don't know what that was about.....they blocked me from it. I feel they are having another meeting today......since I'm unable to see the inner world right now. All I know.....is they were talking about the "Shadow world".....I was told by one of them.

I'm very sad. The inner world is a mess. I want to "fix" it......as in help everyone with their problems.....but it's way too much right now.


I'm not sure what is going on. Lately......there is way too much "interference" when I try to enter the inner world. All kinds of (outer world).....images flash in front of me.....preventing me from seeing the inner world. I'm not sure what's going on with that.

That only seems to happen when someone is partially blocking me. Weirdo claims it's not him. As far as I know......it's NOT Weirdo, Wolverine, Blaze, Brian, or Shadow. Either there is another "protector" I don't know about yet......which might be......or someone else is able to "block".

Now it happened again.....UGH....I don't even remember typing the stuff I just did.

I remember how confusing and scary those times were for me. try to have faith in yourself and your selves. you guys are pretty awesome and things will settle. do your best to relax and take it easy, see to your responsibilities and remember that self care.

eat, sleep, shower, water, exercise, fresh air

take good care of your body and brain so they can take good care of you!

BeccaBee wrote:I remember how confusing and scary those times were for me. try to have faith in yourself and your selves. you guys are pretty awesome and things will settle. do your best to relax and take it easy, see to your responsibilities and remember that self care.

eat, sleep, shower, water, exercise, fresh air

take good care of your body and brain so they can take good care of you!

Thank you!