Journey Thread: Ponyta (Ups & Downs)

I would listen to Shadow here. i wish I had this forum when I was 27. it's helped me lots. i do be very careful for the privacy. at first I wasn't sure if this would be good for me or not. but it's ended up being the best thing.

we all got a bit freaked out when B first got loose. but everything turned out ok. and then it got better than before. I'm glad we all work together now because life just got harder. i don't think we would have made it this far without working together.

I had a deep dark dungeon in my castle. but we renovated it and turned it into an open courtyard and a library wing. i know the land cam be healed.

im.sorry things are so scary right now. friendly reminder for self care. stay hydrated. take care of the body. we always neglect the body when we get wonky.

BeccaBee wrote:I would listen to Shadow here. i wish I had this forum when I was 27. it's helped me lots. i do be very careful for the privacy. at first I wasn't sure if this would be good for me or not. but it's ended up being the best thing.

we all got a bit freaked out when B first got loose. but everything turned out ok. and then it got better than before. I'm glad we all work together now because life just got harder. i don't think we would have made it this far without working together.

I had a deep dark dungeon in my castle. but we renovated it and turned it into an open courtyard and a library wing. i know the land cam be healed.

im.sorry things are so scary right now. friendly reminder for self care. stay hydrated. take care of the body. we always neglect the body when we get wonky.

Thank you so much... for your reply! I greatly appreciate it! Glad to hear the forum helped you a lot.

Glad to know it's possible... for the land to be healed. Hopefully we can heal it soon. I'm working on getting a team together. I already have four.....who agreed to help. So that's good.

Thank you again for your advice! I greatly appreciate it!

I'm not sure what to think of this.... I guess because it caught me so off guard. I was getting ready to take my bath....but before I did....I was standing in front of our sink....brushing our teeth (like I usually do).

After awhile I noticed someone different come over. I noticed them by the change in my eyes (based on the mirror). They were upset because...well....I was getting ready to get into the bath. I have the feeling they are male. I know "I" took my arm.... and folded it over my chest.... until I was done brushing my teeth. They said something mean to me about the situation. Weirdo and all the other males.... know the routine....so that creeped me out. That's not what caught me off guard though.

It was the shock they felt. They were like, "Woah! Where is the other half of my body?" Wait....What!? So they must not be human? Well they are at least half-human.....I think. I'm so confused. I have a strong feeling they aren't fully human..... based on their shock.

I had a strange feeling in my back too. Almost as if my body "continued". I'm not even sure if that makes sense. I know when I'm co-conscious with Nightcrawler.....I get the feeling as if I have a tail. He has a tail in the inner world....so I guess I feel it.

I have yet to see them. They are trying to avoid me....I can tell. I have it narrowed down to what they might be. It's between two "creatures".....but I might be wrong. I would like to see them....or even talk to them....well actually I already did talk to them a little...but I don't know anything about them....other than what I mentioned. Not sure where they went either.

Ponyta wrote:I had a strange feeling in my back too. Almost as if my body "continued". I'm not even sure if that makes sense. I know when I'm co-conscious with Nightcrawler.....I get the feeling as if I have a tail. He has a tail in the inner world....so I guess I feel it.

We have this with a lot of our non-human alters, makes total sense to us! we can feel wings, size changes, etc. Our arms might feel long or we have a sense of being short, with one alter we step really hard with the body because they're very much heavier than the body is - we have to be careful with that one because it accidentally causes damage to the body to walk that way. Sometimes the changes are painful or ache or make us feel heavy or light, but most of the time there's just the awareness of those limbs as though they're really in space, or the sense of the body taking up a different amount of space than it does.

SeveralCrows wrote:

Ponyta wrote:I had a strange feeling in my back too. Almost as if my body "continued". I'm not even sure if that makes sense. I know when I'm co-conscious with Nightcrawler.....I get the feeling as if I have a tail. He has a tail in the inner world....so I guess I feel it.

We have this with a lot of our non-human alters, makes total sense to us! we can feel wings, size changes, etc. Our arms might feel long or we have a sense of being short, with one alter we step really hard with the body because they're very much heavier than the body is - we have to be careful with that one because it accidentally causes damage to the body to walk that way. Sometimes the changes are painful or ache or make us feel heavy or light, but most of the time there's just the awareness of those limbs as though they're really in space, or the sense of the body taking up a different amount of space than it does.

Thank you for your reply. I greatly appreciate it!

Glad to know others can relate. Sorry to hear about stepping really hard though.

I'm actually curious now though if that's why I walk strange at times. Like sometimes.... I'll be walking perfectly fine one moment.... and then all of a sudden become very stiff.... (like it's hard to move). Best described as trying to walk through thick mud....or something. I never really thought much of it before. Not sure why.

I wrote something on my other thread....now I'm worried I wrote it. I guess because my denial is so bad right now. Everything happening lately seems so surreal. I'm not sure why it's so chaotic lately.

I'm very sad. I'm almost having a panic attack. Weirdo, Wolverine, and Bandit... followed Shadow earlier. We all believe Shadow is being influenced somehow... by the forbidden area. They wanted to catch him for his own good.

Well now they are missing. All three of them. A wave of dizziness hit me....then I heard Weirdo, Wolverine, and Bandit hollering for help.....they were calling my name.... just a little while ago. I heard Wolverine say, "Where are we? Help us get out of here."

I'm really sick feeling now. I don't know what to do. Why is this happening? What do I do? I do have an idea where they might be. Not 100% sure though.

Ponyta wrote:I'm very sad. I'm almost having a panic attack. Weirdo, Wolverine, and Bandit... followed Shadow earlier. We all believe Shadow is being influenced somehow... by the forbidden area. They wanted to catch him for his own good.

Well now they are missing. All three of them. A wave of dizziness hit me....then I heard Weirdo, Wolverine, and Bandit hollering for help.....they were calling my name.... just a little while ago. I heard Wolverine say, "Where are we? Help us get out of here."

I'm really sick feeling now. I don't know what to do. Why is this happening? What do I do? I do have an idea where they might be. Not 100% sure though.

This doesnt sound good at all are you familiar with talk heart to heart? if so, can you scan the world inside and find the feeling of them and talk to them that way? Otherwise shadow is the one to save them..
Its very dangerous for you to go to the area and try, you will be trapped too.. and shadow is the one familiar with that area so he knows best how to save them..

TeddyBear the helper wrote:This doesnt sound good at all are you familiar with talk heart to heart? if so, can you scan the world inside and find the feeling of them and talk to them that way? Otherwise shadow is the one to save them..
Its very dangerous for you to go to the area and try, you will be trapped too.. and shadow is the one familiar with that area so he knows best how to save them..

Thank you for your reply! I greatly appreciate it!

Yes....I believe I can. At least... I'm usually able to talk to Weirdo.... from a distance (when he's at his farm). I tried to reach them though...something feels like it's blocking me.

I heard them holler for help again this morning. Then I heard them say (I guess to each other), "Maybe she can't even hear us." So according to that....they never got my message.....but at least they sound okay.

I understand the risk....but....I'm afraid Shadow may be the one who trapped them there. It seems really suspicious. I honestly think Shadow is being controlled by something. So....I doubt he will rescue them....unless he can "snap out of it."

I just realized something....due to what you wrote. Thank you! I was told a while back that Shadow isn't the only one from that area. Nightcrawler came from there. He actually escaped from there....so maybe....I can get him to help? (Escaped is the key word I was told a while back)

I already have formed a small team.....Blaze, Yondu, David, and one of Logan's friends (he doesn't like me....or so he claims...but I managed to get him to help. I believe he doesn't want to admit he likes me.). So three shape-shifters, and one who can control fire. If I get Nightcrawler too (who can teleport)....then hopefully they can be rescued.

I'm really worried about them.

Ponyta wrote:I'm afraid Shadow may be the one who trapped them there. It seems really suspicious. I honestly think Shadow is being controlled by something. So....I doubt he will rescue them....unless he can "snap out of it."

To be honest i had that suspicion too..

I'm really worried about them.

I understand that you are
But tell them to use a long rope as a safety when they go in there, so they just can follow the rope back again if necessary.. and since it seems to be related to an area, then they can keep a distance between them when they walk in, so if something goes bad if they go too far, then the others will know and be close by on the outside to organize the rescue. unless they just can follow the rope back again ofcourse

Extremely dizzy now. I just heard Weirdo hollering for help again. This time he was asking for anyone to help them. He did say my name again too.

I tried to respond right at that same time. He heard me. He told me where they were. He warned me though to be careful. He said something about Shadow not being his self? I didn't understand what he was trying to say exactly. He tried to explain....but we lost "connection".

Maybe proving what we suspect is going on.....or maybe something entirely different....I'm not sure.

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Thank you for your reply....TeddyBear the helper! I greatly appreciate it!

TeddyBear the helper wrote:I understand that you are
But tell them to use a long rope as a safety when they go in there, so they just can follow the rope back again if necessary.. and since it seems to be related to an area, then they can keep a distance between them when they walk in, so if something goes bad if they go too far, then the others will know and be close by on the outside to organize the rescue. unless they just can follow the rope back again ofcourse

That's a good idea. I'll let them know that. I know where we can get the rope too. So that helps.

The only problem though....is....I'm not sure if it will be long enough.

Hopefully Nightcrawler.... can tell them more about the area though. I tried calling him earlier. He said he had to take care of a few things first. Then he said he would come over.