I think my system is a Rubik's Cube

I've noticed that sometimes I think it's a different person but it's really just another side of the same person .MAYBE. like a cube with 4 sides and every single side is a different aspect or different all of the main person which is the single Cube and then I feel like every part of me is kind of like that depending on if and I like to think of that is subsystems. And sometimes they can only communicate with the main Cube or the main Cube can only communicate with other four sides.



I know this sounds kind of crazy but I kind of can feel it in my head and it makes sense in my head but saying it out loud doesn't make sense. Does anybody else feel like they're a Rubik's Cube?

This is how Carrie describes herself to me. She is boks (box). She holds things. There are four faces to a box. She is one of them. The others are A and two unknowns. She says that they are her but they are also individuals, but it is better if they have names to avoid confusion of who I am talking with. When I asked if the top and bottom were additional insiders, “No, they are head and feet silly.” Neither I, Sunflower, or her T have really wrapped our heads around this one… We just let it be.

She is the only one in Sunflower’s system like this. The others all consider themselves individuals as far as I know, though AJ protects Lou and they are pretty inseparable.

We tried mapping everyone out and it helped Sunflower and I. (Who can see and hear who else, etc.) AJ then explained how silly it was trying to map a 3D object on paper.

Hank, perhaps your wife has a "nested" system? That is, one or more insiders with system(s) of their own?

MDs

-- Fri Aug 31, 2018 4:21 pm --

WeAreOne420 wrote:I think my system is a Rubik's Cube

We never could solve that stupid thing.

Laura and others

The thought has crossed my mind.

It does not sound crazy to me.

I do not have the exact same experience, but some of our inner persons (especially me, who is writing at the moment), have sort different faces, which can appear. All sides of this person feel that they belong to the same "box", we have almost the same memory but we have different emotional states, fears, and behavior-sets.

I don't think that would be a good descriptor for us, but that is a very clever way of looking at it.

Also a good way to explain things to a T, doctors and anyone else who needed to know.

I've always felt like a gem. like one with lots and lots of planes that glitters in the light. and every facet is me. a part of me. it just depends on which way is shining in the light.

it's your metaphor. the only thing that matters is if it works for you.

I've often described narcissists as a pyramid. same thing. 4 sides. but one is always hidden ( the bottom of the pyramid) so you think they only have 3 sides. but really is just 3 masks to hide the true them.

a cube would have six sides. I know that's a know it all thing to say but maybe that matters? on the inside? each side would have 9 squares. 6-9-36

MakersDozn wrote:Hank, perhaps your wife has a "nested" system? That is, one or more insiders with system(s) of their own?

Can you explain what a 'nested system' is in more detail please? I've never seen this mentioned before on sites describing different types of dissociation.

It also may be known as a "layered" system. Again, meaning that some system members may have systems of their own, with those people being parts of the person from the main layer.

It's not a concept that works for us personally, but we've known a number of people who have systems like this.

MDs