Recently I was basically begging for my friend to talk to me again (we hadn't in some time). I told him that I accept his did and that I missed him so much and how hard it was to be without him. I asked if he would please message me. Well, later that night I got a direct message, and I thought it was one of his alters, so I talked to this stranger like it was him. They told me to get this app for texting, and I thought it was safe and just required your phone number to register. Turns out my 'username' was just a profile name and they could probably see my phone number. When they asked to see my picture (which they repeatedly did even though I said I was uncomfortable with it), I said he already knew what I looked like. Turns out it really wasn't him because he thought it was hilarious that I thought it was and had no idea who I was talking about. I tried to explain what my friend had and that I was sorry I thought they were him. Anyway, later on I found out my number was probably visible, and it scares me still. I had my IP address turned off in the app at least. And my location in my phone's settings was turned off. I also didn't have my cell phone number linked to any accounts. I did a search myself and couldn't trace it to me. But I'm still scared that this person is some psycho who will try to find where I am and kill me.
I don't know how to get rid of this fear. I have changed my cell phone number, which makes me feel a little safer. I was so stupid. A broken heart caused this. I still care about my friend very much and love him and wish so much that we were still in each other's lives. Still, this is the point it brought me to. Putting myself in danger. I'm just so scared. And I feel like this is the only place that can help me through this. You wouldn't laugh at me for what I'm going through. I just wanted my friend back. ... The reason I left him and pushed him away was because he (or most of his alters) was in love with me yet had a relationship with someone else. I loved him also, and it was just too much for me. I miss him with all my heart. (We met 'in real life' before we became best friends and everything. Before I knew what he had.)I know this post is a bit long, but I would just appreciate any sort of support. Thank you.
News
Site map
SitemapIndex
RSS Feed