Antidepressant caused Heavy panic attack

I had a panic attack on 7th day of antidepressant usage, even though it helped but i was nearly dead. I stopped taking it i still have a pressure in the chest and what do i want to do? Maybe try another antidepressant, i am having escitalopram and do other ssri's doesnt have side effects like shortness of breat and chest pain like escitopram?
I am seriously concerned with this, also i am looking forward to change my therapidt as well. Like i am getting more and more negative after each theraly session aso unable to open up, like no motivation to open up and i feel psych was also not interested in my concerns for the last 6 months.

I need to take atleast a session every month inorder to stay on track but i was skipping months and visted psycologist woth 50-60 day gaps in between which seriously affected my dissociation. I lost every information when i see psycologidt again. So i need a chsnge.

Also i have very big fear that how the psycologt new one will see me and accept me, how i will go to a strange place and open up to a entirley strange person about the things i had been gone through.
I feel so insecure and have a very negative frightening image of the place and hospital in my mimd which make me stick to my present T which is very much slow paced or is not changing his strategy for over a year.

I need to have a Job and i need to have strong big changes in my career in the coming years so i cant just Leave it like something i just want to go. I need to get a Good amount of guidance and self work.
This is all my fristrations that i am telling here, even thoigh my T was very friendly at first but nowadays indirectly i get the idea that nothing i will get from this monthlg sessions and i think that itself is a warning to change T.

i've consistently had bad (and varied) reactions to meds, it's a very difficult and frustrating thing to deal with. ssris may come with some crossover when it comes to side effects, but for me at least i've always had varied reactions to different ssris and meds in general. i'd recommend mentioning the reaction you had to escitalopram to your new psych so they're aware. all meds are different, so if you're up for trying again, it likely won't be the same as your previous experience. you also don't have to go the meds route, so don't pressure yourself in that regard if it makes you feel worse. i've had to manage with therapy-only treatment and it's definitely difficult and slow-going, but it's helped me avoid majorly relapsing so far at least.

consistent weekly therapy with a good therapist and having a med review with a psych who can keep an eye on you well enough and regularly enough should help, i hope things get better for you.