Update

So after ending an intense near abusive relationship we had a really rough couple of weeks.

Switching and dissociating constantly, basically near on delusional. Was a little worried but not too much because the guy showed sociopathic and narcissistic traits and sociopaths cause "normal" people issues. I was expecting a sociopath hangover from being in that relationship and was therefore riding it out.

Went away alone and bada bing bada bong came back feeling like a new person! Not new person like alter but in the usual and not so usual sense that we all felt on the same page again, the switching is back in control, feeling more unified and thank God the delusions stopped.

Was riding it out knowing I was near the edge and praying for the storm to subside. Which fingers crossed it has.

Sociopath wants to be "friends" so because I don't run away I said yeah. I have been in control pretty much of conversations with him and feel much more empowered and definitely free of his madness grip.

Also met up with an old flame. Really anchored me, like sociopath guy never happened and I'm back to my old self more or less but with some experience that I can use for the good. And yet again this is what I love about DID.

Different parts have different opinions, different coping skills and strategies. I realised here I pretty much have inbuilt group therapy and rather than wallow at sociopath damage - and there's been some - I'm back enjoying life and starting afresh on some stuff because of sociopath damage but I learnt loads and to me it was like a life purge.