Hi

Hello everybody,

A few months ago, I read and wrote here as well. I was in a very bad place; just discovered my DID, abusive past, had an unqualified T who confused me even more, system was all over the place, etc. Things exploded when, as some of you might remember,*mod edit*

I pulled us together, kept on reading here, and would like to try again in my current more healthy state and with this other username I hereby explained.

I'm in my late thirties, proud mother of my nineteen year old who is doing great, currently not working because of this situation, but planning on exploring possibilities in the near future again, my social life was practically non existant for a few months as well and now I'm enjoying babysteps in/towards honest and áctual connection with a few very nice people. And, last but not least; after an almost desperate search, I found myself a very good/qualified and nice T; treatment starts in two months, which excites and terrifies me at the same time, as y'all might recognize.

After quitting the unqualified T and having this crisis on this website, everything went quiet for quite some time. I focussed on grounding and keeping my head above water purely while, on the other hand, learning a lot about the psychology behind behavior, trying to keep myself from judging others and myself and seeing a lot of day to day moments as chances to learn. This has helped a lot in calming down and being able to not be trapped in my past 24/7.

But, turns out all the parts who introduced themselves to me, and to the outside world with little control unfortunately, are still here:) Whenever I journal, they pop up, and ofcourse when I'm triggered or actively look to communicate. I'm trying to approach all of them with understanding and compassion (my T to be already has with a scared protector as well, which was a new and wonderful experience) while, on the other hand, not letting everything 'burst out' all the time, anywhere. In short; finding balance in many ways:)

Kind regards

Welcome back to the forum

Hi. It sounds like you're making progress.
We made a lot of progress when I was willing to accept my parts and began to make friends with the troubled, trouble-making teenager as well as accepting the little.

Great that you found a new T!!!!

Kitten

Hello, good to see you.

I’m glad you’re back . Welcome

NyxX wrote:Welcome back to the forum

Thank you:))

ItsJustUs wrote:Hi. It sounds like you're making progress.
We made a lot of progress when I was willing to accept my parts and began to make friends with the troubled, trouble-making teenager as well as accepting the little.

Great that you found a new T!!!!

Kitten

Thanks!

myce wrote:Hello, good to see you.

Good to see you too, myce, thank you:)

LadySlippers wrote:I’m glad you’re back . Welcome

Glad to see you here again as well, Ladyslippers, thank you:)

Welcome back.

Hi Bejer, sorry I missed this thread earlier!

Welcome back to the forum. It sounds like you've had a lot of progress lately, congrats on that!

V2

Hi Bejer,

Welcome back! I'm glad you're doing better, and it's great that you found a good T!

Welcome! Glad you were able to find a new T and get into a good place.

Nicole