First split earlier than I thought. *TW*

Hi didn't read your trauma bit, not in reading trauma mind so whatever it was truly sorry.

I have this very weird memory that's always been with me of seeing my parents first house from an aerial view. They lived there till just before I was 2. I have never seen the house that I actually remember or gone back there to see if it was accurate probably should.


Next weird one. Possibly age 2-3. I saw a past life like I was watching it on TV. Fell off a horse, died, my mother had red hair. I asked my mum where my mummy with the red hair had gone for a long while - upset my mum quite a bit.

So personally I'm not sure this condition is purely trauma related. I believe it has much more spiritual connotations. The trauma also spiritual connotations connected to past life also - karma (as ye reap so shall ye sow, the threefold law - every religion has it in a form) and that it's possibly unresolved Karma.


TW abuse
Probably not popular view but I'm being brave so I'll express my example which is questionable but still it's my internal experience: past life memory of abuse by a father (was not abused by father this life) past life memory of being an abuser (very disturbing) But in this life: got abused by uncle, he said he'd kill me if I told anyone and I said "I'll be dead so I won't care so if you touch me again then I'm telling my mum" I was under 4 - it felt like someone else took me as I said it, something older, something cleaning up.


Possible TW
I did see the word demon in your writing as a scrolled past the trigger and I feel a demon but I also feel an angel and at the same time I feel a middle ground. I feel like I'm walking through life resolving karma, mostly my own but sometimes others as all our karma is intertwined. Mostly I avoid people but occasionally I'm drawn in and it's not until I feel a positive result I feel able to withdraw.

TW sex
Most recently a guy messaged me asking to give me money for sex. It's happened on more than one occasion before but it doesn't usually register and I ignore or say no thank you but this guy registered - not sure why. Possibly a past life where I was sex worker and it's time to resolve that somehow.

End Trigger

This is how I view all this. It's how I navigate it. It's how I have always navigated it. My life has slowly slowly improved. I have a full time job, fantastic children, learned loads of skills, expanded my spiritual knowledge, appreciate life from a nice view over the sea to a cup of coffee.

So my view, as it often is, "splitting" not necessarily a bad thing. Just because current science and psychology has labelled us as broken or mentally ill or even that our brains are retarded, as I also saw here, it doesn't mean it's true.

Once they thought the would was flat. At the moment they think the world is outside of themselves.

Anyway Blessings or Luck or Love or whatever helps you, I think we're blessed, lucky and loved in many ways because of our extra internal unity. We aren't multiple and they aren't singular. We are added unity because we have ourselves inside us. Don't know why other people don't have this or they do but they don't know or they are not ready or whatever it is but I see it as an addition rather than a subtraction from us as human beings. - My opinion and I realise it may be a little controversial possibly unwanted and unliked but I've typed it now.

Sarandipity wrote:Hi didn't read your trauma bit, not in reading trauma mind so whatever it was truly sorry.

I have this very weird memory that's always been with me of seeing my parents first house from an aerial view. They lived there till just before I was 2. I have never seen the house that I actually remember or gone back there to see if it was accurate probably should.


Next weird one. Possibly age 2-3. I saw a past life like I was watching it on TV. Fell off a horse, died, my mother had red hair. I asked my mum where my mummy with the red hair had gone for a long while - upset my mum quite a bit.

So personally I'm not sure this condition is purely trauma related. I believe it has much more spiritual connotations. The trauma also spiritual connotations connected to past life also - karma (as ye reap so shall ye sow, the threefold law - every religion has it in a form) and that it's possibly unresolved Karma.


TW abuse
Probably not popular view but I'm being brave so I'll express my example which is questionable but still it's my internal experience: past life memory of abuse by a father (was not abused by father this life) past life memory of being an abuser (very disturbing) But in this life: got abused by uncle, he said he'd kill me if I told anyone and I said "I'll be dead so I won't care so if you touch me again then I'm telling my mum" I was under 4 - it felt like someone else took me as I said it, something older, something cleaning up.


Possible TW
I did see the word demon in your writing as a scrolled past the trigger and I feel a demon but I also feel an angel and at the same time I feel a middle ground. I feel like I'm walking through life resolving karma, mostly my own but sometimes others as all our karma is intertwined. Mostly I avoid people but occasionally I'm drawn in and it's not until I feel a positive result I feel able to withdraw.

TW sex
Most recently a guy messaged me asking to give me money for sex. It's happened on more than one occasion before but it doesn't usually register and I ignore or say no thank you but this guy registered - not sure why. Possibly a past life where I was sex worker and it's time to resolve that somehow.

End Trigger

This is how I view all this. It's how I navigate it. It's how I have always navigated it. My life has slowly slowly improved. I have a full time job, fantastic children, learned loads of skills, expanded my spiritual knowledge, appreciate life from a nice view over the sea to a cup of coffee.

So my view, as it often is, "splitting" not necessarily a bad thing. Just because current science and psychology has labelled us as broken or mentally ill or even that our brains are retarded, as I also saw here, it doesn't mean it's true.

Once they thought the would was flat. At the moment they think the world is outside of themselves.

Anyway Blessings or Luck or Love or whatever helps you, I think we're blessed, lucky and loved in many ways because of our extra internal unity. We aren't multiple and they aren't singular. We are added unity because we have ourselves inside us. Don't know why other people don't have this or they do but they don't know or they are not ready or whatever it is but I see it as an addition rather than a subtraction from us as human beings. - My opinion and I realise it may be a little controversial possibly unwanted and unliked but I've typed it now.

Thank you for sharing your point of view and for the well wishes and good thoughts.
Kitten