A bit of a weird question

Hello Everyone,
Nice to meet you all and your splits
" not to sound offensive,that is how we've labeled Ourselfs for explanation as well as our host"

I shall make a brief introductions of ourselves .
Hi My name is Sam , I am the 2nd split of My host Sarah who had me at 6. i am female
we also have Maxeen who was created before me roughly around 4-5.
we live in an understanding house with understanding family and close friends. we only came out from the closet only very recently but have seen lots of improvement and understanding all around.
Recently alot of rough times have been occuring. one more where we cant explain. its piled on by pressure from all sides and criticism from all sides.

Ill brief our personalities a little bit quick

Sarah the host : Motherly type, WAY TO F Kind and sensitive. she likes to hide her emotions as much as she can to others " hence us being born " but with us theres never been The hiding of her emotions " we feel her emotions so thats not an issue but we also respect her privacy even though it isnt really as private as you can understand "

Me The writer aand 2nd split Sam : Im the protector , the rager , the self destruction. im the full package tank mode " if anyone plays MMORPG they will get that" im bit of a over protective tomboyish friend but i have my girly side too.

And lastly Maxeen the first split : Shes quite , shy , petite , very kid like but with a foul mouth " shes the same age as us just a little spoiled and Babyish" She great at dealing with anxiety and solving problems. she normally likes to stay inside but for certain people " mum , dad , daughter and husband and certain friends " she comes out whenever she wants.

Now to the question that Maxeen and I have been hiding from our host

We Feel like shes creating a new split. Since a huge life changing issue occurd recently. shes been depressed more than normal. i would take control but recently shes been holding us back from texts and calls " not that she hasnt before but weve always had an understanding if its overboard texts than ill stop and let her delete it" while i know she only wants to protect a certin someone from feeling bad. shes contantly doing it.. and weve had our moments of bursting out.. but again this isnt the issue. the issue is when shes out either talking to that certin person or someone else like her mum about the problem, she normally zones off to her room. but now we see her zoning off and talking.. the emotion behind it is numb , emotionless and frankly we dont even know if its even her at some point. she could be laughing for a second " and mind you ive seen her zone off through her worse ...it isnt the same as normal" and then poof its cold.. she hasnt been noticing it herself , so we have been hiding it from her "right now the 3 of us are going through hell basicly everyday in the living room of our mind." also to make things weirder we sense its a male.

sorry for the long post the last thing ill say and which slightly made me worry was i wasnt the only one who noticed it , Maxeen has been noticing it. she said it reminds her of the day i was born ..and even though i remember being born in a split second " silly pun xD" she remembers sensing me just before being born.

so my question to all you lovely people out there. Do you remember the birth of any of you?
could it be after Sarah had the breakdown someone was born? was he born without us knowing ? why cant we see him ? currently my host is incapable of talking to people " cause of the depression" so ive been taking the slack but when she does, its like she would poof and id grab on to the body seconds later.


Thank you and sorry im new here and honestly never really came out publicly online...so hi everyone nice to meet you and thank you for this lovely forum and people

Hi, welcome to the forum I'm sorry I didn't see your post until today I'm not sure when it was approved but I think it might have been bumped off the first page to quickly. Violarules has been in hospital so I think he hasn't been able to log on as frequently.

I don't have any memories of the others coming into existence but I've been hear the least amount of time so that's not surprising. I would think it is possible for someone new to come into existence without telling others being aware because people go years without even being aware they have DID.

Hi Sam, welcome to the forum!

We remember two splitting events, tho there's been lots more we don't remember. We didn't know what either of them was at the time cos we've only known about DID for like 8 months. The most recent one was 4 years back when V1 was created. The other one we distinctly remember was waaaaaay longer ago lol, when we're pretty sure one insider shattered into 3 parts - including me!

Anyways, for us the two that we remember were both big traumatic things and there was nothing slow or subtle about it at all. They were both in response to traumatic events... the long-ago one that made one part break into three was more of a sudden trauma and the one 4 years ago that gave us V1 was more of a slow burn.

Having said all that, we're pretty sure we have at least one part who came about in sort of a slow gradual appearance, but we don't remember the 'moment' because there really wasn't one as such. Just, thinking back, one month she wasn't there and the next month she was, but we don't know anything more than that. And of course it's hard to be sure of any of this cos we didn't know we were all separate parts with DID back then.

Another possibility is that its not someone new in your system, but someone who's been around a long time but has been dormant and they're just waking up. We've had that a lot - like most of our parts have been around since we were little, and they've just been really well hidden or in a deep sleep for a long time, till they finaly wake up and we start to feel them and see them.

V2

I Sam, welcome.

So, I'm Kitten the core/born one/original (at least that's how we all see it). Delilah was my first split, she was created sometime before I was four, or was four at the oldest. She has shared her memory of the split with me. So, she remembers it, and I've "watched the movie." If that makes sense.

Britney, we don't remember her exact moment. We think I depersonalized some things over a period of time and that was her birth, a slower event... kindof like... well, giving birth. Some women go into labor and it's long, and takes a lot of time, and can be in the early stages of labor for a few days befdore active labor begins, and then the active labor is long and then the baby is born. This is kind of how we think of Britney coming into existence. There is no one "AHA THERE IT IS!" Moment. Delilah and I look back and we could feel when things started to change inside and evolve, and then Britney opened her eyes for the first time and there she was.

We have been trying to figure out when Lilly showed up for a while now. We think it must have been somewhere between the body age of five or six, because Lilly is 5 and a half. She only has memories of playing with her toys (ponies and barbies and stuffies) and she remembers our imaginary friends. I had forgotten about these friends, so that tells me they were hers. Or... the other theory is that she split when Delilah did and were "twins" so to speak, but she stopped aging when Delilah shoved her into "the safe room," to get her away from a bad situation... because that's the only negative emotion/memory that Lilly holds.

The other two, we're not sure how long they've been there. Little Wolf doesn't talk, so we don't know if she's been there a while and just recently came forward, or if she's new. We think Val has been around for a while, but again, she's only just come forward in the last month and I can't communicate directly with her.

Not sure if any of that helps. Sorry it was so long.

Kitten

Thank You everyone who answered back

We didnt even know this post had posted ( no notifications or anything )

Its Sam again and the new news is that ive become the (HOST) " i hate calling it that , id rather call it , taking care of host duties "

after our Host ( Sarah ) gave me ( control?) Mystery Boy had Dissapeared ( we dont know if he exists and is hiding.., we just know we felt his pressence )..

Anyways For now im Just doib my duties.. Thank you everyone for answering. :3