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Can protectors fall 'in love'?

Postby Nichtsgesagt » Wed May 23, 2018 2:45 am

Where to start?
I'm the ex GF of a DID system, and we all have a child together.
I haven't heard anything from ANYONE for over a year and a half, and then suddenly...Bam!!! They're here, and we're all now routinely 'talking.'
My background is C-PTSD, and if the truth be known, I fell for the protector in our prior relationship.
I'm not looking to start anything up again with my baby's daddies (save friendship), but I do want to understand things better for the sake our child, and even myself.
Can protectors fall in love? And if that love is reciprocated, does it mess up the protector and the 'system'?
I wasn't introduced to the system until I'd been with Inc. for nearly 10 months, and by then, I was already six months pregnant with our child. *Sigh*
Now that I know that I primarily connected with Inc.'s protector, I have to wonder 'WHY' they're all back again. As usual, the protector likes to 'shoot the scheisse' with me, and when I do hear from others, they all seem to suggest that "D" (Protector) is still in love with me, and it's taken a lot for him to come back and reestablish a connection (we had a bad breakup).
I'd truly appreciate any insights.
Thank Y'all!
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Re: Can protectors fall 'in love'?

Postby DelilahKBL » Wed May 23, 2018 3:09 am

In short... and this is my opinion and I have nothing to back it up other than my experience...yes.

Every part in our system is in love with our husband. But we did not all fall at once or at the same “speed” so to speak.

There are 4 here, a possible fifth I keep feeling but have not met yet. Our husband met me 4th, but I fell in love with him before the third one he met. I am the protector, but it is not my only “job.” He met B third, though she is difficult, she was a protector in a way (defensive and never let anyone get too close to us before our husband).

Speaking from our own experience, love looks different for each of us in our system. And each of us has a unique relationship with our husband.

I hope that helps, and that you are able to accomplish your relationship goals.

Respectfully,
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Re: Can protectors fall 'in love'?

Postby Dwelt » Wed May 23, 2018 10:13 am

From our experiences, protectors can fall in love, and as our protectors have intense feelings, they don't do "half love" or "reasonable love". That's why they reacted so badly when they've been rejected.

Well, Daem had a reason to be mad, my ex best friend played with him before rejecting us. She thought DID wasn't real, even if I told her right from the begining and warned her when she started to play with Daem (and warned Daem too, but you know...), she thought that I was playing an amusing flirting game, and when she realised the truth (I would just say it was really late to realise she was involved in something with an alter that wasn't me...), she freaked out and ran away. She hurted both Daem and I, and I've never saw Daem out of his mind like that before.

Alexis never shout out to the girl he loved (one of our friend) when she stepped back, first because she's a little bit too young comparing to the body, so no way for us to do anything and Alexis didn't wanted to admit he liked her ; and second because he understood why she did it. She has her own issues and as this year isn't a good year for us, she was too sensitive to stay close. But it hurted him deeply and he doesn't want to hear about her anymore (I'm pretty sure if she comes back, he will not stay angry for too long :roll: ).

Both relationship didn't messed up with the relationship our protectors have with the rest of the system or with the rest of the system, because when one of us start to develop feelings for someone, we talk about it, and talk a lot. We try to know how everyone feel about this person and if it's safe or not to investigate those feelings. If one of us feel it's a big "NO", then we'll do nothing.
And if it end bad, we don't blame each others, we try to support each other.

So yeah, protectors can fall in love. If it will mess up the protector and the system is more difficult to know and up to your ex system.
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