Owens tale

I want my host to know some things, but I don't ever like to tell her upfront about the truth. Until she finds out on her own, or from everyone's help on here. That's when I tell the truth. Most may not be live this but I can and do control my hosts weight, not by eating more. But, by just holding onto water weight or just by adding weight to her. Don't really know why I can do this just can and my host knows this. I do want her roomate/ex boyfriend out of the house and have been making her gain weight to get him out faster. But she knows ill cause major anxiety about him leaving. Just what I do cause I want the extra attention as well. I do want panther to know this is the truth but she's not be living me. And she has to get paid back the money he owes her. Do I really want her to gain weight, not really. Just know she hates it enough to listen to me. I want her to do what's right so he'll not borrow so much money all the time. I am a protector, but like to be an angry alter at the same time. I want someone's opinion on what I'm doing to get her attention, as well as that she'll be ok even with the extra anxiety. Though it might be for weeks. She's not listening to me cause I lie. I understand this and realize lying isn't a way to get about, but that's the way I like to treat her. I am wanting her to understand this which is my main reason I wanted to post this when we're co-con I just need some input as what other alters like me might do in this situation, if they'd like to come out and share.

Hi Owen, I hope what you wrote was helpful to your host. I'm sorry I'm not sure what else to say except that it's good you opened up about your feelings and I hoped it helped her understand some of your point of view.