Rapid memories?

I was having a hard time with an alt. that i dont get along with and they pushed me into a dark room.. So another alt. Sorra scooped me up and helped me out but took me on this long journey into my childhood.

So I'm just in the bed and my mind is racing and I get these rapid fire memories. I start freaking out because I started feeling like im about to be around child alts I dont want to wake up or get lost in the prt of my brain whwrw cjikdhood memories are.

So i feel l like I split several times. And I feel my mind racing still but I feel like I'm an adult.
Thats what terrified me the most. Following the alt. And feeling like I lost my independence. I have OCS and I don't want to ger caught up in following anyone it just feels awful without free will.

I followed the orders of the alt. that rescued me and got angry once I felt settled enough to stop and walk away.

I believe they may have helped me out of a jam but low key out me in a new one.

Its really crazy to be dealing with this for over 4 1/2 hours straight


I just hope that I'm not lost and that my mind sorta goes back to normal once settled. I'm very tired.

I wish ny mind was more peaceful.
Wish me luck

we aren't sure if this is similar or not but we can go into near frantic state of swift memory intrusions which can last hours and leave us emotionally exhausted, near suicidal, and desperate.