Having second thoughts..... *may trigger*

my first post..hope I do it right. Last week an alter showed us a mental picture of what we think was the first incident of sexual abuse. Saw the abuser, got a name in the mental image. Found a database to verify but just couldn't click on it. Asked our T to check it out for us. My question: what was your reaction when you found this kind of info? Know T will ask if we want to know Monday. Asked that he give the info only to an adult alter. Anyway you wished you'd been prepared or did to prepare? Thanks for input & help.