Hmm...

Maybe I should go to therapy...


Only cuz I'm tired of not having anything DID-related to discuss on this forum

I ENJOY WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY BATES! YOU HAVE GOOD GRASP OF SELF-AWAREDNESS, AND A GREAT SENSE OF HUMOR!
I KNOW THERE ARE GOOD THERAPISTED AND BAD ONES. I'VE ALWAYS HAD A GOOD EXPERIENSE IN THERAPY. I DON'T KNOW IF I'VE JUST BEEN REAL LUCKY, OR CAN'T TELL A GOOD THERAPIST FROM A TELEPHONE POLE. WHAT EVER YOU DECIDE, I HOPE IT TURNS OUT WELL. PLEASE KEEP US POSTED!

BENNY

Thanks Benny, you're pretty entertaining yourself . I'm not a fan of therapists, but we all know that by now. But hey, it'll give me something to do however many times a month I need to do it. Or per week, however that $#%^ works, I don't know. And I'll actually have fun DID stories.... not just random rantings that belong in a forum about nothing. Like Gaia Online, there's a fun forum people love to hate!

Probably not going to though, I'll probably forget, or change my mind. I'm sure my insurance would cover the bill... but I don't feel like spending once a week talking about how I feel and what I think this and that means. I wouldn't even know what to talk about. Like I said once before, therapy is for people who can't help themselves (No offense to anyone). I'd sit down "Umm, yeah, multiple... it's... fun, I guess? I mean, actually, really no effect on my life, other than keeping me from being a totally normal and boring person." "How does that make you feel?" "Content?" "What do you think that means?" "Means I'm wasting my time here, but not your's cuz what the ###$ do you care, you're getting paid good money." "I got this job because I care about people" "#######4, you got this job cuz you're ###$ up and you're hoping someone out there is worse than you." and I could actually go on and on with how I'd think the conversation would go. And there's a 99% chance I'm right. But I'll stop where I stopped cuz it was getting long enough.

But seriously, I need a flashback or something, cuz I haven't posted anything about my progress on this little adventure in repairing Memory Lane in ######6 ever. And I feel like I'm wasting everyone's time by constant BS posts.

Bates and Benny,

What would you want to talk about that is not #######4.

Bates interesting that you are looking for a trigger. Most avoid it.

I often wonder when I come in was I different from the day to day.

And how I will be accepted in this forum, because it has really recently is in the foreground of my life.

I have my core self. that is me. i can switch with out me knowing, I hate that.

I am uncomfortable with this Dx and really dont know what it is.

But I know it is all about my emotions that trigger me.

red

I hope you don't go to therapy on account of us...
and if thats the case... lets start our own group therapy that would save both of us the trouble...

I HEAR YOU LARK,

I KIND OF ALREADY USE THIS FORUM FOR GROUP THERAPY. I DON'T THINK A THERAPIST COULD EVER KNOW US AS WELL AS WE DO, PEOPLE THAT HAVE A LIFE TIME OF EXPERIENCE. I DO THINK IT'S GOOD TO KEEP AN OPEN MIND TO LEARN NEW AND BETTER THINGS.

I'M GLAD MY LIFE ISN'T BORING TOO BATES. SOMETIMES THAT'S THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME GOING. I LISTEN TO "NORMIES" AND AT TIMES, CAN'T HELP BUT THINK, "IF I HAVE TO HEAR THIS MINDLESS DRIBBLE ONE MORE SECOND I'LL SCREAM!" I THINK IT'S COOL TO COMMUNICATE WITH YOU ALL. I CAN RELATE TO WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY. I USED TO THINK I WAS RETARDED OR SOMETHING, BECAUSE IT'S SO HARD FOR ME TO KEEP FOCUSED.

BENNY

SmallTalkRed wrote:
Bates interesting that you are looking for a trigger. Most avoid it.

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What can I say? I'm one of a kind . In all seriousness, I just like to have answers to questions.

And relax, Lark, I was joking on myself for never really posting anything DID-related anymore. I feel like I'm wasting the time of people looking for answers. Not that you guys seem to mind, as I usually post something everyone can find amusing. But I'd really try to cut back on doing that. And if I went to therapy, it'd be out of desperation to remember my past. Not cuz of a DID forum

I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN BATES, I WANT ALL THE ANSWERS TOO! IT'S A DIRTY TRICK. THE WORST PART IS I DO HAVE THE MISSING PIECES OF MY PAST, AND THE PART THAT DOES WON'T TELL ME! IT SUCKS

I COULD BE WRONG BUT I DON'T THINK I'VE REMEMBERED ANYTHING FROM THERAPY. I LEARNED WAYS OF GETTING TO KNOW MY OTHER PARTS, AND GOTTEN SOME ANSWERS FROM THEM. MOST OF THE TIME I DON'T EVEN TALK ABOUT IT IN THERAPY. PUT IT THIS WAY, WHY THE ###$ WOULD I SPILL MY GUTS TO SOMEONE I DON'T KNOW, FOR A HOUR, THEN LEAVE. THATS #######4! I DON'T SEE HOW TALKING ABOUT THE BLOODY DETAILS, COULD HELP ANYWAY.

I DON'T LIKE TO GET ALL EMOTIONAL AND $#%^. WE CAN USUALLY FIGURE OUT THE ANSWERS FOR OURSELF. GETTING TO KNOW EACH OTHER BETTER HELPED ME GET MEMORYS. NOT EVERYONE CAN TAKE IT. IT'S BETTER THAT SOME PARTS DON'T KNOW. TRY GAINING A YOUNGER ALTERS TRUST WHEN THEY WANT TO SWITCH. SOMETIMES THEY WILL SPILL THE BEANS IF THEY KNOW YOU CAN BE TRUSTED.

BENNY

._. I only have two active alters (neither will tell me anything), and they're both older than me by quite a few years.

._. I only have two active alters (neither will tell me anything), and they're both older than me by quite a few years.

So they're silent? I'd imagine it'd be frustrating... what's it like?