My missing friend.

I have many unknown alters. This is a new diagnosis.
They do not want to work with me and are extremely evil, and childish.
I created my very first friend when I was 13. His name is D. A evil man can into my sight at about 16.
He pretends to be him and manipulates me into doing his will.
I refuse. He tells me he is D. My doctors say he is not D. But I have never seen D before yet I feel he is apart of me. I wish to be D.
He is everything I adore in a person.
He is a lot like me.
But I am physically a girl.
How do I find D?
I miss being in touch with that side deep down emotionally.
They are absolutely amazing.
I can control my body. I am the core.
They will not have access.
I refuse again.
But I would very much like your opinion on the matter.
D is one of my true wishes for myself.
I need them.

Hi, Madison!

I'm confused. Is D an imaginary friend? an alter? what? Also, who is the "evil man" you met at 16?

Our old host created an imaginary friend at about the same age you were when you made friends with D. For years, her friend did evil things to her. Last year, we found out the real friend had been taken over by an evil person. Now the friend has been separated from the evil guy and is nice again. Does that sound familiar?

- Cullen